I am STUPID
So i have realized that I truly am stupid. A true idiot. Last week I was losing my freaking mind. My emotions were everywhere and ontop of that i sounded like an idiot to Kasey. Sunday I woke up and felt normal. Like whatever cloud had been wrapped around my head and screwing up my thinking process was gone. Thank God. I look back at myself from last week and I'm thinking, "What the hell was wrong with me?!?"
Now that I'm normal I can fix things though. No i should not have given Kasey the letters I worte him while i was temporarily losing all sense of reason, but everything was great thismorning so I'm thinking he didn't read to much into any of it. I did write him an apology last night and i plan on giving it to him if i see him before tomorrow. I do truly miss him, but I'll wait till tomorrow if i have to. I know he is going shopping today and then there's the Deyton issue so i won't be surpirsed if i don't see him till tomorrow. Which i understand completely. Poor Deyton. The big break-up with him and Megan has been a long time coming, but really it IS Valentine's Day this week. I feel for him cause they haven't been the greatest thing together, but as a woman i feel for her because it's Valentine's Day! I mean that really sucks for both of them. I doubt it will take very long for Deyton to snap back from it seeing as how he did tell me he didn't love her, but she's another story.
Now there's the problem of getting his Valentine's present. I was planning on going shopping with Megan this week, but that's not happening, so what now? I have to get to Hickory to get both of the main parts of the present. I can get his card at Hallmark here, but the rest has to be gotten in Hickory. How am i going to get to Hickory now? If i had known that this was going to happen I would have went Saturday with Arialle. Now i feel like I'm totally screwed! And his present is so great, but i'm going to look like worst girlfriend if I'm late on this. The only reason I've put it off is i didn't get my money until today anyways.
Well Megan just called me crying. I'm going to go out an hang out with her. She needs a friend and I am her friend. Crap this really sucks. I really like Megan.
Now that I'm normal I can fix things though. No i should not have given Kasey the letters I worte him while i was temporarily losing all sense of reason, but everything was great thismorning so I'm thinking he didn't read to much into any of it. I did write him an apology last night and i plan on giving it to him if i see him before tomorrow. I do truly miss him, but I'll wait till tomorrow if i have to. I know he is going shopping today and then there's the Deyton issue so i won't be surpirsed if i don't see him till tomorrow. Which i understand completely. Poor Deyton. The big break-up with him and Megan has been a long time coming, but really it IS Valentine's Day this week. I feel for him cause they haven't been the greatest thing together, but as a woman i feel for her because it's Valentine's Day! I mean that really sucks for both of them. I doubt it will take very long for Deyton to snap back from it seeing as how he did tell me he didn't love her, but she's another story.
Now there's the problem of getting his Valentine's present. I was planning on going shopping with Megan this week, but that's not happening, so what now? I have to get to Hickory to get both of the main parts of the present. I can get his card at Hallmark here, but the rest has to be gotten in Hickory. How am i going to get to Hickory now? If i had known that this was going to happen I would have went Saturday with Arialle. Now i feel like I'm totally screwed! And his present is so great, but i'm going to look like worst girlfriend if I'm late on this. The only reason I've put it off is i didn't get my money until today anyways.
Well Megan just called me crying. I'm going to go out an hang out with her. She needs a friend and I am her friend. Crap this really sucks. I really like Megan.