Stupid Lion
So my UPS report said my books were rerouted and won't be here till tomorrow. Gosh i just hope they come early in the morning before i leave for school! I'm dying here! Anyways i've been complelling a music list for Twilight and sounds that just match the story and the mood. I know Stephenie Meyer has some which are awesome, but some new songs have really hit me as perfect.
Light Up The Sky ~ Yellowcard
Track Eleven ~ Sasoin
Crap i can't think of all them cause i left my ipod at home. So anywho i'm waiting on Matt to come pick me up right now. I have a Math quiz tomorrow that i know i'm going to fail. That is the only class that has got me extremly stressed out to the point that i feel like i'm having panic attacks. At least i have really good friends that are getting through classes. I don't how i would be surviving without Kasey and Megan through out the day.
So I still haven't got a hold of Julia. Thinking about it i haven't talked to Araille or Tabie in the last two weeks either. I feel like my life is all upside down. I'm going, going, going every which way till i'm so dizzy i just wanna throw up. I'm so ready for Fall Break this weekened. I need it to so bad. I just need some time to breath, to paint, to write, to be myself peacefully.
So now i'll go home, pray God will give me some strength and forgive me for not going to church tonight, wait for Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse, and hold Matt till time won't let me anymore.
I'm listening to this song way to much by Yellowcard. It's called Shadows and Regrets and it's been making me cry uncontrollably all day. It makes me just think of my best friend Arialle moving away to college next year, Tabie gettting married in January and moving to Wisconsin, me getting married and life changing, my childhood best friend Liz and much we grew apart as we grew up. God here i go crying again.
"I 'm back in town and everything has changed...i feel let down..the faces stay the same...i see shadows of who we used to be when i drive so slow through this memory...When we were only kids and we were best of friends and we hoped for the best and let go of the rest...I heard my self say things i take back...if i could retell and make these stories last...i see shadows of who we'll always be when i drive these roads that made our memeories...When we were only kids and we were best of firends and we hoped for the best and let go of the rest...shadows and regrets and let of the rest...Everything has changed, but faces stay the same, When we were only kids and our time couldn't end and how tall did we stand with the world in our hands. We were only kids and we were best of friends and we hoped for the best and let go of the rest. Shadows and Regrets we let go of the rest, shadows and regrets and let of the rest...."