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well the school year's almost over for me. its amazing how i think back to the beginning of my freshmen year of high school and be totally blown away by the fact that i had 4 years left of my life before i disappeared forever. high school was everything back then. college kids left and never came back. therefore, life ended then. but really, there was a whole new life here for me...and at the beginning of this year i thought "wow, 4 more years...and my life can finally start."
its all in perspective. but in all honesty, i dont feel any different than i did when i was 14. well, i'm more comfortable with myself. thats about it though. i still think i know everything (and nothing at the same time). i still think the naughtiest (and most politically incorrect) jokes are the funniest. i'm still initially shy and have a close circle of good friends. i'm still so very eager to flirt, but thats always as far as it goes. i still spend hours upon hours imagining different conversations and situations i could have with other people. ...i dunno. i think i'm pretty much the same. and yet i'm entirely different.
so i guess the inevitable question that i have to ask myself is...did i disappear after high school?
its all in perspective. but in all honesty, i dont feel any different than i did when i was 14. well, i'm more comfortable with myself. thats about it though. i still think i know everything (and nothing at the same time). i still think the naughtiest (and most politically incorrect) jokes are the funniest. i'm still initially shy and have a close circle of good friends. i'm still so very eager to flirt, but thats always as far as it goes. i still spend hours upon hours imagining different conversations and situations i could have with other people. ...i dunno. i think i'm pretty much the same. and yet i'm entirely different.
so i guess the inevitable question that i have to ask myself is...did i disappear after high school?