A Little Bit Longer
'A Little Bit Longer' is a song on the new album by the Jonas Brothers of the same title. Nick is the youngest, and he wrote it about his experience with diabetes. I just listened to it on my Ipod, and I'm looking up the exact lyrics to post them.
"I wrote 'A Little Bit Longer' about my own experiences with diabetes and with the hope of inspiring those living with diabetes and other serious illnesses."
The song really relates to how I feel about having Crohn's disease. It just...sucks. And sometimes I get really depressed about it. Most of the time I prefer to ignore the fact that I have it. I don't like stressing about it. I don't want people pitying me. I'm totally open about talking about it; I'll answer anyone's questions, anytime. But it's easier to think about it and talk about it detachedly. But sometimes I'm face-to-face with the fact that I have an incurable disease, and I hate it.
I mean, that phrase itself. Incurable disease. That's the kind of thing you read about in those emo books high school girls like to read. An incurable disease is something you think about during a telethon for some good cause. It happens to other people. You read about inspirational stories with people who face their diseases with a smile.
It's not supposed to happen to you. It's not supposed to happen to someone you love.
But it happened to me. And I hate it. And I hate worrying about being married and having kids and passing this on to them. I think I would feel guilty the rest of my life if any of my kids developed Crohn's disease because that would be my fault for having kids. I'm terrified of getting osteoporosis. I'm scared that later in life, my Crohn's will get worse, and I won't be able to work or be a good mom. I think the worst part of it all is that I don't know how to express myself and not be pitied. I know that the whole point of having friends is sharing burdens, but I hate hate hate pity. I just want people to understand. Crohn's is my problem that I have to deal with. I'm been dealing with it for thirteen years; I'm pretty good at it.
I dunno. Listening this song coupled with having to see my gastroenterologist next week added to explaining having a weak immune system to McPhee just brought on my yearly surge of Crohn's-related emotions.
Got the news today
Doctor said I had to stay...
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
When I thought it'd all been done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know (no, no)
You don't even know
All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
Waiting on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know (no,no)
You don't even know (no, no)
You don't even know (no, no)
(2,3,4!) Yeah!
And you don't know what you got till it's gone,
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know! No!
So I'll wait till kingdom come
All the highs and lows are gone
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
I'll be... fine
"I wrote 'A Little Bit Longer' about my own experiences with diabetes and with the hope of inspiring those living with diabetes and other serious illnesses."
The song really relates to how I feel about having Crohn's disease. It just...sucks. And sometimes I get really depressed about it. Most of the time I prefer to ignore the fact that I have it. I don't like stressing about it. I don't want people pitying me. I'm totally open about talking about it; I'll answer anyone's questions, anytime. But it's easier to think about it and talk about it detachedly. But sometimes I'm face-to-face with the fact that I have an incurable disease, and I hate it.
I mean, that phrase itself. Incurable disease. That's the kind of thing you read about in those emo books high school girls like to read. An incurable disease is something you think about during a telethon for some good cause. It happens to other people. You read about inspirational stories with people who face their diseases with a smile.
It's not supposed to happen to you. It's not supposed to happen to someone you love.
But it happened to me. And I hate it. And I hate worrying about being married and having kids and passing this on to them. I think I would feel guilty the rest of my life if any of my kids developed Crohn's disease because that would be my fault for having kids. I'm terrified of getting osteoporosis. I'm scared that later in life, my Crohn's will get worse, and I won't be able to work or be a good mom. I think the worst part of it all is that I don't know how to express myself and not be pitied. I know that the whole point of having friends is sharing burdens, but I hate hate hate pity. I just want people to understand. Crohn's is my problem that I have to deal with. I'm been dealing with it for thirteen years; I'm pretty good at it.
I dunno. Listening this song coupled with having to see my gastroenterologist next week added to explaining having a weak immune system to McPhee just brought on my yearly surge of Crohn's-related emotions.
Got the news today
Doctor said I had to stay...
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
When I thought it'd all been done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know (no, no)
You don't even know
All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
Waiting on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got till it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know (no,no)
You don't even know (no, no)
You don't even know (no, no)
(2,3,4!) Yeah!
And you don't know what you got till it's gone,
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know! No!
So I'll wait till kingdom come
All the highs and lows are gone
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
I'll be... fine