my papa
well i guess my papa decided to get dialysis. so he will start today. my grandma now just told me that my papa will not get out of the hospital. so i guess he will be there until something happens. i just hate to see him like this. i am not sure on how to think or feel on all this. my mom said that she and my grandma broke down yesterday. apparently my papa is looking worse and worse right now. i am not sure on what to think. this is one of the hardest things that i am going through. this tops it all. even from what happened yesterday.i do not know. i cant explain the feelings at all. i am not even sure if i can even put into words on how ifeel. so who knows. oh well i guess.