Life
You work so hard, strive to reach your goal and when you finally get there you get kicked back down to where you started. After all the work all the frustration over the last couple months what do i have to show for it..? A broken heart and misery. I didn't walk away a richer man or a happier man. I walked away with lessons learned and risks taken. I walked away in tears. I came back to where I had left off. To where I had started this journey. It is so difficult to live my own life for months and then suddenly to be thrown back in to the old life. To answer to my mom and listen to her nag about what i did or didnt do. But at the same time to come home to my mom, the only woman i know will never leave me. Will never let me down. Will never hurt me. Lifes just a big fucking joke and you've got to learn to laugh along with it. Life gives you lemons and you make lemonade, life takes a shit on you and your nothing more than shit. I definetly got shit on. I never realized how difficult it would be to come back. I never realized the struggles you face day to day being alone. I had a job, a house, a life and it's all gone. I came back to my familys home and my friends. The pain I feel inside cannot be duplicated the pain I feel does not cease. But the pain i feel will vanish. Time heals all things and I will continue. I will start over and achieve what it is that I strive for. I will not let anyone or anything hold me down or hold me back. I made it once, I know I can make it again.