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am I ok. yeah not really.
I broke down last night and friday, I need to find something that will take my mind off everything in life right now.
I just feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest, and stomped on.
As far as the whole eating thing goes, it hurts more now because I'm eating healthy and I dont want to be.
I know that if I dont Jenn, Duncan and everyone else who I know cares, will be dissapointed.
I'm not even doing this for myself, because if it was my choice, I'd have puked twice already today.
I cried myself to sleep last night..
You know what.
This is the lamest shit ever. I hated to listen to other people moan and groan about their lives, and their problems, and me.. compared to everyone else I dont even have bad problems, so I just have to let all this shit go.
Forget about getting raped, and this whole eating disorder shit fuck... I'm over it.
Now...... how are you?
I broke down last night and friday, I need to find something that will take my mind off everything in life right now.
I just feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest, and stomped on.
As far as the whole eating thing goes, it hurts more now because I'm eating healthy and I dont want to be.
I know that if I dont Jenn, Duncan and everyone else who I know cares, will be dissapointed.
I'm not even doing this for myself, because if it was my choice, I'd have puked twice already today.
I cried myself to sleep last night..
You know what.
This is the lamest shit ever. I hated to listen to other people moan and groan about their lives, and their problems, and me.. compared to everyone else I dont even have bad problems, so I just have to let all this shit go.
Forget about getting raped, and this whole eating disorder shit fuck... I'm over it.
Now...... how are you?