im sorry okay!
today is sucking majorly. i got my period this morning as i expected and im so freaking congested. i feel like such shit its ridiculus. plus im not gunna see tom tonite so im prob gunna take this night to sleep or sumthin...cry some more haha..for the...4th? day in a row. crying seems to be coming custom to me lately, and im not sure why. everything tears me apart and i wish anyone could understand how i felt at times....cuz i really think that so many people think that they know me but they really dont. im not even sure i kno myself anymore, i mean i dont kno what i like, what i want, who i am...anything... i just dont get life...things have always been hard, but now it feels harder, and i kno its acutally not, im just making it harder on myself for some unknown reason...
im so selfish, i realized it today, well i always knew it, but thought about it more today then normal. toms goin out with his friends tonite, they have band practice and then hes seeing some movie...and i cant help if i wanna see him and be with him, he doesnt understand...sigh...not many people do...ugh im depressing myself...i gotta go :(
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im so selfish, i realized it today, well i always knew it, but thought about it more today then normal. toms goin out with his friends tonite, they have band practice and then hes seeing some movie...and i cant help if i wanna see him and be with him, he doesnt understand...sigh...not many people do...ugh im depressing myself...i gotta go :(
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