Dear LJ,
You won't judge me or give me the "you'll get raped" lecture, will you? Because I need to tell someone about something and I'm freaked that everyone I could tell in person will judge me. And give me the "you'll get raped" lecture.
But first let me tell you about myself.
Around people I don't know, I'm painfully shy. I'm that awkward person standing against the wall and looking like she wants to leave but knows as soon as she does, someone will look at her funny. I'm the person who had a grand total of four guy friends in high school. I'm the person who went to a Christian college and made wonderful friends, but they all live far away. I'm the person who's seen only two of my friends from high school all summer and has been babysitting for the rest of it. I'm the person who's transferring to a new school this coming year and I know nobody at the school at all.
I'm also the person who is a member of the most loving online forum in the history of ever. The internet has become my place to be myself and not worry about saying something stupid or fangirling over pretty Broadway men or venting when I'm angry. I've met people in real life that I've met on this forum, and I love them all. It's unusual and uncommon and I get that, but I've had really great experiences meeting people over the internet. So far.
So go ahead and judge and prepare your "you'll get raped" speech, because I joined a dating site. I'm paranoid that I won't make friends at school and that I'll never have a social life and I'll never date anyone, so I joined a site. I've got a good head on my shoulders and I don't need people to make me happy, but that doesn't mean I don't want to meet people. And the people I've "talked" to so far seem pretty cool. It's nice.
The internet hasn't let me down yet. And sure, maybe this is the time it will, but I'm not gonna let my over-protective and way-too-judgmental mother make up my mind about online dating. I'm smart and I'm not going to agree to meet someone in person after two days. I'll be fine. And maybe I'll make a friend or meet someone that likes me. Those would just be perks.
But first let me tell you about myself.
Around people I don't know, I'm painfully shy. I'm that awkward person standing against the wall and looking like she wants to leave but knows as soon as she does, someone will look at her funny. I'm the person who had a grand total of four guy friends in high school. I'm the person who went to a Christian college and made wonderful friends, but they all live far away. I'm the person who's seen only two of my friends from high school all summer and has been babysitting for the rest of it. I'm the person who's transferring to a new school this coming year and I know nobody at the school at all.
I'm also the person who is a member of the most loving online forum in the history of ever. The internet has become my place to be myself and not worry about saying something stupid or fangirling over pretty Broadway men or venting when I'm angry. I've met people in real life that I've met on this forum, and I love them all. It's unusual and uncommon and I get that, but I've had really great experiences meeting people over the internet. So far.
So go ahead and judge and prepare your "you'll get raped" speech, because I joined a dating site. I'm paranoid that I won't make friends at school and that I'll never have a social life and I'll never date anyone, so I joined a site. I've got a good head on my shoulders and I don't need people to make me happy, but that doesn't mean I don't want to meet people. And the people I've "talked" to so far seem pretty cool. It's nice.
The internet hasn't let me down yet. And sure, maybe this is the time it will, but I'm not gonna let my over-protective and way-too-judgmental mother make up my mind about online dating. I'm smart and I'm not going to agree to meet someone in person after two days. I'll be fine. And maybe I'll make a friend or meet someone that likes me. Those would just be perks.