most awkward long day ever...
and i care not to say why... well maybe i do... of course i do, why the hell else would i be sitting here and writing... but onto less pressing issues; the bad news: i only shot a half roll of film today... the good news: i shot a half roll of film today!!... oh and the other bad news... awkawardity... the more pressing issues... so yeah today was me, katie, and mandy shopping in the city... and yay!! mandy is going to go to new york with me for the big apple anime expo!! woohoo!! but that should be awkward, too, just like every other anime related event with the two of us... so anywayz, i really miss hanging out with her all the time, those were the glory days, forget bruce springsteing... back when i lived in her basement for a weekend (about 4 days) cause i got kicked out of my house and both of us liked each other but neither said a word... we found out the truth months later... many months... i wanted to shoot myself, or at least build a time machine and shoot my former self... so we're downtown and katie goes to buy something to only have her card declined, even though she has a bunch of money in her account, so she starts to get all pouty and wants the world to feel sorry for her which i did of course, cause i care and all but she does go a bit overboard sometimes and yeah it does get on my nerves... fuck it all to hell.. so yeah i just wanted to hang out with mandy then and i did... and now that i think about it, it was her that i was following around in stores and her that i told about things that i wanted to buy... so i have no fucking idea what to do anymore... oh and yeah, katie got me tell her about my dreams last nite... so i could totally tell she was nervous about me hanging out with mandy today... fun fun.. and she got real quiet when i said that i was lending mandy the money so that she can go to NY with me, even though she already knew that i was going to... argh... what to do what to do... oh and i just remembered that i have to be at new student orientations tomorrow morning... wanna smoke...