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He looks at me with those brown eyes, strokes my cheek and kisses me and tells me to come to bed. My hearts pounding and I don't know what to do. If I go to bed with him again its a circle that keeps going around. I get up grab some juice and hear him calling me from his room, and I cave. Its hard not to when he's all I want. I crawl in the already warm sheets and am enveloped in arms and the scent that is him. He tells me we're just friends but I'm under the impression that we both feel more, want more but are afraid to take more.
He's stroking my cheek again and playing with my hair and I can't help but fall a little. Then he says that if we had children they would be beautiful and I think there's more, that he wants more but I'm not sure.
In the morning its always different, and I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do when he constantly bugs me and teases me. I don't know what to do when he talks about other girls. I don't know what to do when I'm out and he hits on them. I get mad but there's nothing I can do. Nothing that I can really say.
I am not one of those one night stand kind of girls, I am the one that scares guys away because I'm not some short term fling. I'm the forever kind, the kind that you take home to mom and tell her she's the one. Its hard not to care and try to be something I'm not. I can't be the girl that just doesn't give a fuck.
Its a rollercoaster with him, and I don't know when its going to end, if its finished and all I'll do is fly off the edge or if it'll just coast to a stop and I'll be left sitting there wondering what happened.
He doesn't deserve the treatment I give him, I'm way too considerate when he doesn't really care. Enough is enough.
He's stroking my cheek again and playing with my hair and I can't help but fall a little. Then he says that if we had children they would be beautiful and I think there's more, that he wants more but I'm not sure.
In the morning its always different, and I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do when he constantly bugs me and teases me. I don't know what to do when he talks about other girls. I don't know what to do when I'm out and he hits on them. I get mad but there's nothing I can do. Nothing that I can really say.
I am not one of those one night stand kind of girls, I am the one that scares guys away because I'm not some short term fling. I'm the forever kind, the kind that you take home to mom and tell her she's the one. Its hard not to care and try to be something I'm not. I can't be the girl that just doesn't give a fuck.
Its a rollercoaster with him, and I don't know when its going to end, if its finished and all I'll do is fly off the edge or if it'll just coast to a stop and I'll be left sitting there wondering what happened.
He doesn't deserve the treatment I give him, I'm way too considerate when he doesn't really care. Enough is enough.