haha...
so yes... i've pretty much been working all the friggin time lately but surprisingly i'm not bitching about it. it hasn't been bothering me. i actually enjoy going to work... it's been quite fun lately. maybe i'm just being more positive lately which could be linked to it all anyways. but yea...
things have been good lately. i've been enjoying myself. i still miss holly anne and all but with the few friends that i do have that are close we've been hanging out quite a bit. like last sunday and this past thursday i've gone out to ruby tuesday with jess and sam. :) haha... i love them. i'm actually going out to eat with them again tomorrow. the three of us have decided that every sunday nite we are all going to get together (unless one of us can't for one reason or another) and go out to ruby's. it should be quite an interesting time but i'll enjoy it.
the car is running good. it's sooooo much fun to have a convertible. :) u can get a suntan on ur way to work... now who can say that they can do that? not many people... haha...
so the agenda for the week looks something like this:
sunday: work...12-8 then out w/ jess and sam then off to see matt
monday: see matt
tuesday: work 5-10
wednesday: work 2-10
thursday: off... open to interpretation
friday: work 9-2 then off to mass to see the show out in monson... the prozacs' cd release and i'm gonna pick up my celiny and hopefully *crosses fingers* see my holly anne cuz she will hopefully come back home. :) yay... <3's everyone up there
saturday: work 9-2 then probably do whatever comes up
i just realized that i am actually pretty happy right now. things are going well and i'm happy with how things are going. :)
i saw steph page (friend from h.s.) thursday. i stood there and talked to her for a lil over an hour. it was actually nice to talk to her. i realized how much i really miss my friends from high school. i dont miss school in anyway but i miss the friends i had. :'( they were all really good to me and i have some amazing memories with all of them. but needless to say i'm going to try to get in touch with a lot of them and stay that way. i guess after having such a horrible time in high school i disassociated myself with all the friends i had and that wasn't the smartest thing to do on my part. well, i realized what i did wrong and now i'm going to try to rectify my wrong. i've been doing this a lot lately. righting my wrongs and taking responsibility for what i've done in the past, learning from it and moving on regardless of the outcome.
i've also made a permanent decision on what i'm going to do for school. :) this makes me happy because i was so flustered about everything that i couldn't actually see what i wanted out of life. but i just realized the other day that photography is what i love to do and i have a natural talent for it. so i'm going to major in photography. :) that way i have a multitude of possibilities that i can do with my life. i'm going to take this fall semester off to work and save up what money i can because the car and stuff needs to start being paid right now so that i need to take care of at the moment. so fall semester is out but i will go to qvcc (community college) in the spring and then probably take a few classes over the summer. then next fall i will transfer to salem state college in salem, mass. if i like the school and enjoy the town... if not then i will more than likely apply to a school in connecticut. i sat and thought about new york and as much as i loved it out there... it just didn't suite me well. so i'll go somewhere that i will enjoy myself. i see myself loving salem but i'll see what happens with that.
i've had time lately to clear my head and think about things even though i've been working quite a bit. i went for a ride w/ my dad today to buy a vacuum and we were talking about how money can't buy happiness and as long as i can live comfortably and enjoy my life and what i do with it and i'm happy then that's all that will matter. and it's true.
i feel so much better about everything lately... my life, myself, my friends, how things are going. i realize it can't always be sunshine and rainbows and flowers and good times but through all the shit that may happen you learn from what happens and make the best of it. i realize that all the shit that i've been put through in the past month was all for a reason... whether i wanted to deal with it at the time was not a choice i could make (obviously i didn't want to but oh well). so now... i guess you can say "i can see clearly now the rain is gone" i know that the rain will come back again because life has natural highs and lows but i think i'll deal with things better the second time around.
sorry that was kinda deep for everything but i wanted to get it all out cuz i haven't been updating a lot lately.
*holly anne... leave me a comment to let me know whether or not you'll be coming home for the show on friday. i really hope you are cuz i want to see you soon. and this way we can discuss the whole philly/sf/nintendo fusion tour thingy. i miss you and hope things are going well out in ny*
**celina, if you still want to go to the show on friday i'd love to pick you up. i miss you and i'm sorry i haven't called but i've been crazy busy with stuff. i promise i will call soon i just can't tell you what day but i will. we can talk about friday and whatnot. i miss you sweetie**
<333 ya'll lots. :-*
::side note:: the new senses fail album is out on sept. 7th. you should all go out and buy it because its a cd/dvd combo and holly anne and i will most likely be on it. and if you're a really cool kid then you'll pre-order it cuz you get a free pin... (OOOOo Aaahhh) bur for serious. go get it... it's amazing AND you should all go see them at least once cuz u dont know what ur missing
things have been good lately. i've been enjoying myself. i still miss holly anne and all but with the few friends that i do have that are close we've been hanging out quite a bit. like last sunday and this past thursday i've gone out to ruby tuesday with jess and sam. :) haha... i love them. i'm actually going out to eat with them again tomorrow. the three of us have decided that every sunday nite we are all going to get together (unless one of us can't for one reason or another) and go out to ruby's. it should be quite an interesting time but i'll enjoy it.
the car is running good. it's sooooo much fun to have a convertible. :) u can get a suntan on ur way to work... now who can say that they can do that? not many people... haha...
so the agenda for the week looks something like this:
sunday: work...12-8 then out w/ jess and sam then off to see matt
monday: see matt
tuesday: work 5-10
wednesday: work 2-10
thursday: off... open to interpretation
friday: work 9-2 then off to mass to see the show out in monson... the prozacs' cd release and i'm gonna pick up my celiny and hopefully *crosses fingers* see my holly anne cuz she will hopefully come back home. :) yay... <3's everyone up there
saturday: work 9-2 then probably do whatever comes up
i just realized that i am actually pretty happy right now. things are going well and i'm happy with how things are going. :)
i saw steph page (friend from h.s.) thursday. i stood there and talked to her for a lil over an hour. it was actually nice to talk to her. i realized how much i really miss my friends from high school. i dont miss school in anyway but i miss the friends i had. :'( they were all really good to me and i have some amazing memories with all of them. but needless to say i'm going to try to get in touch with a lot of them and stay that way. i guess after having such a horrible time in high school i disassociated myself with all the friends i had and that wasn't the smartest thing to do on my part. well, i realized what i did wrong and now i'm going to try to rectify my wrong. i've been doing this a lot lately. righting my wrongs and taking responsibility for what i've done in the past, learning from it and moving on regardless of the outcome.
i've also made a permanent decision on what i'm going to do for school. :) this makes me happy because i was so flustered about everything that i couldn't actually see what i wanted out of life. but i just realized the other day that photography is what i love to do and i have a natural talent for it. so i'm going to major in photography. :) that way i have a multitude of possibilities that i can do with my life. i'm going to take this fall semester off to work and save up what money i can because the car and stuff needs to start being paid right now so that i need to take care of at the moment. so fall semester is out but i will go to qvcc (community college) in the spring and then probably take a few classes over the summer. then next fall i will transfer to salem state college in salem, mass. if i like the school and enjoy the town... if not then i will more than likely apply to a school in connecticut. i sat and thought about new york and as much as i loved it out there... it just didn't suite me well. so i'll go somewhere that i will enjoy myself. i see myself loving salem but i'll see what happens with that.
i've had time lately to clear my head and think about things even though i've been working quite a bit. i went for a ride w/ my dad today to buy a vacuum and we were talking about how money can't buy happiness and as long as i can live comfortably and enjoy my life and what i do with it and i'm happy then that's all that will matter. and it's true.
i feel so much better about everything lately... my life, myself, my friends, how things are going. i realize it can't always be sunshine and rainbows and flowers and good times but through all the shit that may happen you learn from what happens and make the best of it. i realize that all the shit that i've been put through in the past month was all for a reason... whether i wanted to deal with it at the time was not a choice i could make (obviously i didn't want to but oh well). so now... i guess you can say "i can see clearly now the rain is gone" i know that the rain will come back again because life has natural highs and lows but i think i'll deal with things better the second time around.
sorry that was kinda deep for everything but i wanted to get it all out cuz i haven't been updating a lot lately.
*holly anne... leave me a comment to let me know whether or not you'll be coming home for the show on friday. i really hope you are cuz i want to see you soon. and this way we can discuss the whole philly/sf/nintendo fusion tour thingy. i miss you and hope things are going well out in ny*
**celina, if you still want to go to the show on friday i'd love to pick you up. i miss you and i'm sorry i haven't called but i've been crazy busy with stuff. i promise i will call soon i just can't tell you what day but i will. we can talk about friday and whatnot. i miss you sweetie**
<333 ya'll lots. :-*
::side note:: the new senses fail album is out on sept. 7th. you should all go out and buy it because its a cd/dvd combo and holly anne and i will most likely be on it. and if you're a really cool kid then you'll pre-order it cuz you get a free pin... (OOOOo Aaahhh) bur for serious. go get it... it's amazing AND you should all go see them at least once cuz u dont know what ur missing