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I'm feeling a little awkward today. It may be the culmination of a billion different emotions coalescing themselves in to one anti-climatic moment as my weekend ends.
TV was good tonight. I sat on the couch with the biggest mug I had and it was filled to the top with hot chocolate. Even though I'm trying to workout, eat healthy and diet, I still have vices looming in this house. I started to jogging last Friday and I've been out four or five days since then. Of course on the first day I did something to my foot and I can't walk very long on it. No, I'm not going to see a doctor. It's not life threatening. I'm getting continual blows to my self esteem during the past few days as well, however I cooked dinner to some of my best friends and that felt really good.
I did get up and FINALLY used my TLR, it only took 5 hours to work up the gusto to do it. It was from 1956 and it is super rad. It also has the ability (if the photographer has any skill) to take some incredible pictures. I've had the camera for almost a year and the first time I tried to load film (last Christmas) I failed and didn't touch the camera again until today. I loaded it correctly and head out toward the port where I jog to. There was a fire on the docks today. It looked like a big one. I took a picture with my Polaroid and with the TLR. I think I fucked up with the TLR, but I have to realize I have to learn how to use it. My big plan is to take pictures of my friends in their element or with their favorite stuff. I have some color film so I'll have to see if I can really make it happen.
I want this to work badly. I love photography, I don't know how or why, but it is my favorite artistic outlet and I just want to do well with it. I love to capture moments of time and have them framed and developed as I saw it.
I've paid my bills (partially), picked my March Madness teams, used my TLR, played some games and now I prepare for a new work week. Work will be a good thing, it'll keep my mind busy.
I'm sleepy and I'd really like to say good night to someone.
Goodnight.
TV was good tonight. I sat on the couch with the biggest mug I had and it was filled to the top with hot chocolate. Even though I'm trying to workout, eat healthy and diet, I still have vices looming in this house. I started to jogging last Friday and I've been out four or five days since then. Of course on the first day I did something to my foot and I can't walk very long on it. No, I'm not going to see a doctor. It's not life threatening. I'm getting continual blows to my self esteem during the past few days as well, however I cooked dinner to some of my best friends and that felt really good.
I did get up and FINALLY used my TLR, it only took 5 hours to work up the gusto to do it. It was from 1956 and it is super rad. It also has the ability (if the photographer has any skill) to take some incredible pictures. I've had the camera for almost a year and the first time I tried to load film (last Christmas) I failed and didn't touch the camera again until today. I loaded it correctly and head out toward the port where I jog to. There was a fire on the docks today. It looked like a big one. I took a picture with my Polaroid and with the TLR. I think I fucked up with the TLR, but I have to realize I have to learn how to use it. My big plan is to take pictures of my friends in their element or with their favorite stuff. I have some color film so I'll have to see if I can really make it happen.
I want this to work badly. I love photography, I don't know how or why, but it is my favorite artistic outlet and I just want to do well with it. I love to capture moments of time and have them framed and developed as I saw it.
I've paid my bills (partially), picked my March Madness teams, used my TLR, played some games and now I prepare for a new work week. Work will be a good thing, it'll keep my mind busy.
I'm sleepy and I'd really like to say good night to someone.
Goodnight.