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the pre-screening interview today went okay.. not bad, not fantastic... just mediocre, nothing to be dissapointed about, but i didn't "wow" them or anything..
i feel kinda shitty now though.. i feel like i just had a huge fight.. maybe i did? i dunno..
sometimes honesty can be really warming and uplifting.. hell the entry from last weekend was (in most part) a testament to that.. at the same time though honesty can be cruel and disheartening (for both parties), as it was tonight..
at what point does one draw the line to hold thier tongue and keep something to themselves? and if one chooses to do that, how long do you do that till this untold honesty--this lie, essentially--eats you up inside... those questions become even harder when the other side asks you (expecting a sincere answer) what you honestly feel.. do you continue to lie? or do you open up and say what you really feel, even though you know it will make them--and in turn, you--feel like shit?
niether option sounds too appealing.. and thus i come home tonight feeling like an asshole.. and perhaps such is the case..
i feel kinda shitty now though.. i feel like i just had a huge fight.. maybe i did? i dunno..
sometimes honesty can be really warming and uplifting.. hell the entry from last weekend was (in most part) a testament to that.. at the same time though honesty can be cruel and disheartening (for both parties), as it was tonight..
at what point does one draw the line to hold thier tongue and keep something to themselves? and if one chooses to do that, how long do you do that till this untold honesty--this lie, essentially--eats you up inside... those questions become even harder when the other side asks you (expecting a sincere answer) what you honestly feel.. do you continue to lie? or do you open up and say what you really feel, even though you know it will make them--and in turn, you--feel like shit?
niether option sounds too appealing.. and thus i come home tonight feeling like an asshole.. and perhaps such is the case..