For those who know.....
So many things have happened in the last few months. Nothing in my life compares to what I've experienced in the last two weeks. I've become such a strong person from it but I'm still struggling with fear. I'm still afraid of any man that fits the description and I still have dreams about it. But I'm okay. I'm moving on. I'm strong. The last three days I've come out of isolation and I'm really starting to feel like myself again. I've been seeing a counselor and its helping. I dont know...... Life is still good. I'm still happy. The sun just shines a different color and my smiles feel foriegn. And strangers in the night strike me with fear. Dark shadows paralize me. I don't think my brain will ever make sense of it all. But I'm still alive. We are all still alive. We could have all been dead. Thats just one more reason to keep breathing.