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[punkishdoughboy]

as stupid as this sounds
i could leave my life
when i was with you
loosing myself in your eyes
the only way i want to die
tommorow is never too soon
upon these days i hate
when can i be with you
i dont want to be alone again

your are just a thought inside my head
my emptyness confides in you
these words brings bitterness
yet not bitter
these words seem angered
but not angry
just confused, to the light you bring
then take away
im used to the dark...

my fight is in myself not with you
my fight should be alone
your not the answer just a
temporary solution
only if i could find you
find you here with me
alone in the dark

drifting away on these words of discontent
i find my light in these empty bottles
but could never bring back this feeling
this feeling i once had
the feeling of not being who i am
but losing myself in you
in your eyes again

its not your fault
you did nothing wrong
my sadness seeps from years
from years of complications
turning back the clock
trying to see...
to see the good in me
the good in me
the good in me
its just not there
why cant you be here

i want you and need you
what a burden on you
feeling these moments in my chest
it wasnt long, but important to me
you'll never know how much it meant to me
again i write these words of discontent
on this lonely sheet of paper
in the dark

loosing myself in you
is not a fight i want to win
your mystery finds me
traps me in this corner
this corner upon im used to
this place i never want to go
but always here
want to loose myself again