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So summer begins. What a crazy whirlwind this past few weeks have been. Physically, mentally, emotionally...interesting.
Why do boys have to get into your head. Why do we let it happen, why do we make exceptions for them? I can't decide if I like the comfort of being with some one or the actual person. It's hard because I've only known him for a few weeks and yet I'm buggin. I don't know what to say because I don't want to be a pain but at the same time I can't be fucked with again. I made the mistake of starting this shit without using my head and now I can't escape the constant thoughts that are racing through my brain. I've been fucked over so many times in the past that it is now controlling my every move. It was gotten better. I can remember laying in bed with some one last August and I could barely stand the thought of it, now I've slept with some one and I am ok with it but not at the same time. It was dumb and random and irresponsible but great.
Getting mad is always the easiest solution, especially when you can be angry with the other person but when you're mad at yourself it becomes hard to forgive. You're young and in an interesting place in your life. I can't read you and it pisses me off. I feel like I am giving way more than I am getting back and that's not how it should be. I forgot what it was like to start over...I'm not a fan
Why do boys have to get into your head. Why do we let it happen, why do we make exceptions for them? I can't decide if I like the comfort of being with some one or the actual person. It's hard because I've only known him for a few weeks and yet I'm buggin. I don't know what to say because I don't want to be a pain but at the same time I can't be fucked with again. I made the mistake of starting this shit without using my head and now I can't escape the constant thoughts that are racing through my brain. I've been fucked over so many times in the past that it is now controlling my every move. It was gotten better. I can remember laying in bed with some one last August and I could barely stand the thought of it, now I've slept with some one and I am ok with it but not at the same time. It was dumb and random and irresponsible but great.
Getting mad is always the easiest solution, especially when you can be angry with the other person but when you're mad at yourself it becomes hard to forgive. You're young and in an interesting place in your life. I can't read you and it pisses me off. I feel like I am giving way more than I am getting back and that's not how it should be. I forgot what it was like to start over...I'm not a fan