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So now I'm still avoiding doing my homework...realized I have 3 finals, instead of only two. GAH! That means 3 trips downtown, unless I write two one day and the other a different day. Yesterday was a good day...it really was. I got to spend time with one of my best friends, talking about everything. She had a few concerns, about personal things, and we talked about those too. Sitting in the middle of RR's lounge, I'm pretty sure anyone who would have come into our conversation halfway would have looked at us funny. There was a few little things I realized sitting there too, things that when I got home, scared me. What they were will either be in my pink book, or in a private post later...because they are that personal, and I'm still trying to figure them out myself. I really need to learn to not let my fear overwhelm me..I let it do that far too often, and I end up in a heap of tears on my bed.
Tomorrow is the meetup, and my decision not to go, still stands. There's a few people I'd love to see, but overall...it's not something I wish to do at this point. Plus I can't really afford it...downtown is very far away. Still no luck with a job...gah. Really right now I don't particularly want one. I think I'll sign up for the mystery shopper thing, I decide when I work..and they pay for my purchases. Seems like a good deal to me. I think I'll stop procrastinating now...go back to my work, daydream a bit..and continue missing certain people.
Tomorrow is the meetup, and my decision not to go, still stands. There's a few people I'd love to see, but overall...it's not something I wish to do at this point. Plus I can't really afford it...downtown is very far away. Still no luck with a job...gah. Really right now I don't particularly want one. I think I'll sign up for the mystery shopper thing, I decide when I work..and they pay for my purchases. Seems like a good deal to me. I think I'll stop procrastinating now...go back to my work, daydream a bit..and continue missing certain people.