it had something to do with the rain
i woke up absurdly early this morning, and my brain flicked on almost instantly (usually it takes a while) and i started thinking about grad school.
of course i couldn't go back to sleep, so i went to work absurdly early, and continued to think about grad school, and came to the conclusion that what was nagging me was that i'm not certain i have what it takes to do this. i am, in fact, Scared Shitless.
as soon as i figured that out it becomes easy. one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, as the saying goes. and if i fail at this, so what? failing at something awesome is better than not doing something awesome at all.
i can do this, i will do this, and it all starts with a day in the lab and laundry when i get home. i'm still scared of course, but i'll try to ignore that until it (hopefully) goes away.
of course i couldn't go back to sleep, so i went to work absurdly early, and continued to think about grad school, and came to the conclusion that what was nagging me was that i'm not certain i have what it takes to do this. i am, in fact, Scared Shitless.
as soon as i figured that out it becomes easy. one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, as the saying goes. and if i fail at this, so what? failing at something awesome is better than not doing something awesome at all.
i can do this, i will do this, and it all starts with a day in the lab and laundry when i get home. i'm still scared of course, but i'll try to ignore that until it (hopefully) goes away.