fredonia school drop out
so im dropping out of Fredonia. my mom is coming this week to pick me and my shit up. i feel like a failure, but im getting myself sick being here. its not healthy. my mom thinks its best for me, my stepmom told me im a failure..but i just cant do it anymore. no way. im going to work full time and then go to a school on the island. i applied to farmingdale, old westbury and of course the lovely suffolk. i guess going away wasnt for me. first sesmter was great, but i cannot stay in a cow town for this long, its not me. it was a great expeiernce, i just cant keep pushing myself. i brought my friends from school home this weekend and i cried to my mom every day. leaving for the aiport this morning, i turned all the wasy around half way there and just cried to my mom. im becoming way to depressed and its making me not eat at all and im getting sick. its 10:30 at night and all i had today was 12 french fries, i cant keep going this to myself. i no ill be happier home, i can buy myself a new car and work alot until the fall, and then take summer classes to catch up. its a loss of alot of fuckin money, but i dont think u can put a price on happiness. oh well...guess thats life, u learn from mistakes..mine was...going o suny fredonia where theres deer walking across campus...