Jul 16, 2005 17:52
....thank you for the nice words....
...made my day...I live a very humble existence....
...trying not to get crunked every night...work 45-50hr weeks...trying to get back to school....
...I come home late most nights...and drink into the morning hours...
.............dreams deferred man.....
................Dreams Deferred....
...I too am trying to get outta here...but am pretty much stuck in VA...til I finish school...so another 1-2yrs....
....oi.........
...I've been having crazy dreams...
....and world is getting crazier...
....having it's crazy dreams...and waking nightmares blister on the tv screen....
......you talk of painting...I've done some things.......
........................here and there..............
but I've pretty much ...transferred my love of OR onto an unattainable woman...who barely knows me...
...that's how I saw that fertile land outthere....
I wish I had taken a can of earth so I could sleep on it during full moons ...and plant my seed all over it....
........yah, man I miss you too...weird being back east...
...I uh....hate it?....?...yah,...yah I do...but it'll at least be an undying contributor to my artistic endeavors....
...dude...don't become a drunk....
...I did...and almost had to go to rehab........
but...luckily ...I had some people who came out of the cracks ...who I didn't even know existed..help me through my problems....
...though...comically...I sit here drinking......
whatever...
....don't freak though man...earn some do re mi....
....and just get out...find a lucrative skill...and distribute your time positively...so you can leave....
...doesn't even have to be big things...could be small things....like..taking a walk or some shit...or going out to the forest to look for sprites...or bigfoot...probably just a wild asian ape that has propagated.....for centuries...anyhow...read a book...plant some flowers...draw clouds...and make them some new-agey rorschach(?) test ...I've been an inner cosmonaut..lately...and have revolting against myself...
...cut all my hair off........
....and am meditating....
....and compulsively masturbating....
...but what's new....?
At the moment I am trying to come up with this script so I can film it up in NYC........in the fall....
....anyhow chill out conch.....
...find your Fonz...zen state of cool...and chillax
...Life will get better...seriously...
....I mean the devil just took the training wheels off my ass ...and has been riding it for a while...but like...I don't schlep no fuckin' demons ...so I got off that road...and said to hell with his bullshit.....
Anyhow sista...hit me back...and get rowdy!....
As Always I Remain,
-ZachXXX
I miss that kid like mad. He basically kept me alive the last couple weeks in portland. twas a neighbor of kristin and I's. Awesome human being, to say the least.. he brought me back to reality in a miraculous way..
MC- Conchie 'N the leash Featuring ZACKNASTY
someday my grasshoppers..