sooo
im in my own mind more then ever lately.
and i love it.
but i still cant tackle nearly as much as i can wish for.
school is meant for learning, do grades really mean that much?
yes, for the future.
but right now im in class to expand my knowledge.
I guess i could do both at the same time.
not enough catch up time
there never is enough time in life
i still get way too distracted.
but thats what living is about right
actually living.
if anything, caseys death has taught me just that
dont think twice, just live.
i miss him.
so does everyone else.
i have the best friends i could ever ask for.
loyal and fucking fun as hell.
they fill up my time with nothing but joy.
i love being single
i love the game
i love only caring about myself and my friends
but there is still something missing.
the pieces will fit back together eventually.
after all the pieces are more together now then they have ever been.
and this is the first time
they both have someone
i go and i go and i go
i love that.
should it slow down? maybe.
everyone changes
im glad for that.
its hard to really get to know me
when me is wrapped up in alot of stuff.
it would be nice to take a year off
spend it only using my mind away from everyone in nature.
but it seems impossible.
maybe i am a hippi like you keep saying :]
im happy
and im strong.
i do miss him
but he misses me too
and with these type of things there is no telling
we just have to wait and see
and the waiting just keeps getting shorter
my feelings are still uneasy about that
but then again its just time
Breathe deep.
Talk slow.
Walk soft.
Let go.
Give big.
Take less.
Don't count.
Just guess.
Act fair.
Think long.
Laugh loud.
Sing Strong.
Plan bold.
Dream far.
Feel loved.
You are.