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It's become extremely clear to me, after going to Nate's graduation party, that i have no use for the vast majority of people i went to high school with, nor they any use for me. Even people that I thought I missed were just the boring, self centered people that i could never see them for in high school. People who i thought were my good friends chose to ignore me, and even the people that i knew who were good people when we were in high school have changed for the worst. It was rather a sad experience and reason enough for me to ditch out early.
Matt chose to ignore me which was what i expected and wouldn't expect anything more out of the douche bag. The best i got was a look that quickly was diverted when eye contact was made. To hell with the bastard, he's less of a man than my 8 year old brother is. I love his father though. Mr. Mason is awesome and the only person who noticed i lost weight. Points for Mr. Mason. He was the only person who actually seemed happy to see me. Things with Brian haven't changed. He was still all over me like he thought he was gonna get some. Newsflash: you are in no way attractive; physically, personally, mentally, emotionally,...i've run out of ally's, and you've done a great job treating me like shit and putting me into many highly uncomfortable situations. Thank God something manly ike the grill diverted his attention away. If there's something considered manly that needs attending Brian is all over it like flies on horseshit.
I just felt completely out of place and like i shouldn't have even been there. I've moved on from these people and it was obvious they had moved on from me. There was just this very unwelcoming vibe in the air that was almost as thick as the humidity. I'm just really ready to leave everything about this place behind. There are a few people i'll take with me but that number is highly limited and mostly consists of people who i knew long before high school. That short amount of time has really hit home how much i no longer belong here. I'm ready to move on, there's nothing more i want but i'm still stuck here. Let the past and it's relationships rest. I'm ready to go back to DC....or Chicago.
Matt chose to ignore me which was what i expected and wouldn't expect anything more out of the douche bag. The best i got was a look that quickly was diverted when eye contact was made. To hell with the bastard, he's less of a man than my 8 year old brother is. I love his father though. Mr. Mason is awesome and the only person who noticed i lost weight. Points for Mr. Mason. He was the only person who actually seemed happy to see me. Things with Brian haven't changed. He was still all over me like he thought he was gonna get some. Newsflash: you are in no way attractive; physically, personally, mentally, emotionally,...i've run out of ally's, and you've done a great job treating me like shit and putting me into many highly uncomfortable situations. Thank God something manly ike the grill diverted his attention away. If there's something considered manly that needs attending Brian is all over it like flies on horseshit.
I just felt completely out of place and like i shouldn't have even been there. I've moved on from these people and it was obvious they had moved on from me. There was just this very unwelcoming vibe in the air that was almost as thick as the humidity. I'm just really ready to leave everything about this place behind. There are a few people i'll take with me but that number is highly limited and mostly consists of people who i knew long before high school. That short amount of time has really hit home how much i no longer belong here. I'm ready to move on, there's nothing more i want but i'm still stuck here. Let the past and it's relationships rest. I'm ready to go back to DC....or Chicago.