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.Today I came to the conclusion, that my life is, in fact, some form of a living hell. I wake up 4 hours earlier than most, only to melt during my phsyical activities in the bone melting heat... SO uncalled for.
It's wrong really. Badmitten loses it's edge at 8 in the morning.
Also realized today, is how miserably pathetic I am. If we all had to walk around with the one word that described us engraved on our forehead, I think mine would be Asshole. I make so many fucking stupid mistakes I don't realize until whatever it was just completely shatters. My life is like a bunch of closed windows that need to be opened. They just get rocks thrown through them before I realize their locked. There's really no excuse for what I do, I guess its just how I fucking work. Still, I always manage to lose what a care about most, second most, and most of what other things I mostly like, purely because of my subconcious neglect for the matter. It's really sad that when it comes down to it I'm the one to blame for the pain.
I wish I could make all the pain go away...
It's wrong really. Badmitten loses it's edge at 8 in the morning.
Also realized today, is how miserably pathetic I am. If we all had to walk around with the one word that described us engraved on our forehead, I think mine would be Asshole. I make so many fucking stupid mistakes I don't realize until whatever it was just completely shatters. My life is like a bunch of closed windows that need to be opened. They just get rocks thrown through them before I realize their locked. There's really no excuse for what I do, I guess its just how I fucking work. Still, I always manage to lose what a care about most, second most, and most of what other things I mostly like, purely because of my subconcious neglect for the matter. It's really sad that when it comes down to it I'm the one to blame for the pain.
I wish I could make all the pain go away...