For the last four years...
I've waited for the day Eric would be home for good... however...
For the first time I'm beginning to feel terrible about Eric not reenlisting. I just feel like I coerced him into getting out. I enjoy having him home. It's still on the weekends until June but... I just feel somewhere inside of me that he really enjoyed it. :( I don't know how to handle this. It's too late for Eric to go back, even if he decided to. I just... I don't know if I should bring it up to him how I feel. It gnawing away at me. I know I'm uncertain about what the future holds, but I want him to be happy. If the Navy makes/made him happy then I want him to do that. I have always told him no matter what he decides I'll support him, even if it hurts that he's deployed or underway ...
I wish I knew how to feel ... and what to do...
For the first time I'm beginning to feel terrible about Eric not reenlisting. I just feel like I coerced him into getting out. I enjoy having him home. It's still on the weekends until June but... I just feel somewhere inside of me that he really enjoyed it. :( I don't know how to handle this. It's too late for Eric to go back, even if he decided to. I just... I don't know if I should bring it up to him how I feel. It gnawing away at me. I know I'm uncertain about what the future holds, but I want him to be happy. If the Navy makes/made him happy then I want him to do that. I have always told him no matter what he decides I'll support him, even if it hurts that he's deployed or underway ...
I wish I knew how to feel ... and what to do...