Lets Change the Tune a Bit
I sure now that the dreams I've been having are simply my subconsious being an asshole again. It did similar shit when when I was 16 and had that crush on Adam Henderson. We all see how well that worked out. I had a dream last night that caught me by suprise.
First I'll give some back story. Bri had a decent day yesterday and the four of us (bri, chris, becki, and i) all hung at chris' and had dinner while chris and I played video games. While there Bri had a few drinks. A few very strong drinks then started making phone calls.... because Becki is a moron and didn't take her phone from her. Finally I took her phone and she preceded to tell me that I am a really amazing and handsome guy and that I was going to find someone and that one day Aaron is going to realize that he let the best thing he ever had walk away..... and that nobody could do better than me. That was about the most profound thing she said. The rest was her mumbling about she is a good person and deserves to have a nice boy. Well I get her home then I go home to an IM from Kevin giving me shit for letting HER drink..... FUCK YOU... shes a big fucking girl, let her fuck up her own life. I was so pissed that he put that one me that I texted Bri and her to get off the goddamn phone or next time I wouldnt be there to clean up the mess. She responded with "paul your a better friend than i deserve, thank you". then I went to bed
I had a dream that she had gone too far. That she had began drink daily and getting wasted to the point that she didnt remember who she was. Dreams tend to exaggerate. Finally I had had enough of dealing with everyone elses shit and not getting anything but gas money and the occasional wine cooler in return and simply cut her off. I stopped answering her calls, I changed my schedule at work so that we would work together as often and would only hag with chris and becki if she wasnt around.
The dream was not from my perspective though, it was from her's. She noted that I never worked her, that she always got my voice mail, that I was never around when she was. And she went to the most recent person I had walked away to see how they dealt with it. She went to Aaron.
She sat on his couch in a awkward silence for about a half hour waiting for him to get then Jeff finally broke the silence to ask how she had been doing anf how I had been doing. She couldn't answer the second one. He asked why she was there and responded,
"I needed to know how to have Paul leave and have it not hurt."
"hmm, you seem a bit dependant on Paul. Though I'm sure he needs that"
"He needs someone who will love him, and I dont need some middle age queen breaking me down and analyzing me"
The silence continues and finally Aaron arrived home. He offered her a drink, telling her that if it came down to it she could crash there, but she declined knowing that the juie was one of her biggest problems. Aaron came over sat down.
"How can you do it" she asked him
"Do what?"
"How can you go day to day afer knowing Paul.. after having him as your own, and now live without him around at all? Doent it hurt?"
"It hurts a little. More how we broke up than actually breaking up. It's better for him this way. How is he?"
"I dont know, he wont talk to me. And for some reason I thought to come here to ask you how to deal."
....I dont remember much after that but I'm sure the main theme is out there. Oh well.
Final Thought: Why would you open a new bottle when the old one still has soda in it?
-Paul
First I'll give some back story. Bri had a decent day yesterday and the four of us (bri, chris, becki, and i) all hung at chris' and had dinner while chris and I played video games. While there Bri had a few drinks. A few very strong drinks then started making phone calls.... because Becki is a moron and didn't take her phone from her. Finally I took her phone and she preceded to tell me that I am a really amazing and handsome guy and that I was going to find someone and that one day Aaron is going to realize that he let the best thing he ever had walk away..... and that nobody could do better than me. That was about the most profound thing she said. The rest was her mumbling about she is a good person and deserves to have a nice boy. Well I get her home then I go home to an IM from Kevin giving me shit for letting HER drink..... FUCK YOU... shes a big fucking girl, let her fuck up her own life. I was so pissed that he put that one me that I texted Bri and her to get off the goddamn phone or next time I wouldnt be there to clean up the mess. She responded with "paul your a better friend than i deserve, thank you". then I went to bed
I had a dream that she had gone too far. That she had began drink daily and getting wasted to the point that she didnt remember who she was. Dreams tend to exaggerate. Finally I had had enough of dealing with everyone elses shit and not getting anything but gas money and the occasional wine cooler in return and simply cut her off. I stopped answering her calls, I changed my schedule at work so that we would work together as often and would only hag with chris and becki if she wasnt around.
The dream was not from my perspective though, it was from her's. She noted that I never worked her, that she always got my voice mail, that I was never around when she was. And she went to the most recent person I had walked away to see how they dealt with it. She went to Aaron.
She sat on his couch in a awkward silence for about a half hour waiting for him to get then Jeff finally broke the silence to ask how she had been doing anf how I had been doing. She couldn't answer the second one. He asked why she was there and responded,
"I needed to know how to have Paul leave and have it not hurt."
"hmm, you seem a bit dependant on Paul. Though I'm sure he needs that"
"He needs someone who will love him, and I dont need some middle age queen breaking me down and analyzing me"
The silence continues and finally Aaron arrived home. He offered her a drink, telling her that if it came down to it she could crash there, but she declined knowing that the juie was one of her biggest problems. Aaron came over sat down.
"How can you do it" she asked him
"Do what?"
"How can you go day to day afer knowing Paul.. after having him as your own, and now live without him around at all? Doent it hurt?"
"It hurts a little. More how we broke up than actually breaking up. It's better for him this way. How is he?"
"I dont know, he wont talk to me. And for some reason I thought to come here to ask you how to deal."
....I dont remember much after that but I'm sure the main theme is out there. Oh well.
Final Thought: Why would you open a new bottle when the old one still has soda in it?
-Paul