hi
i haven't written in a while ive been so busy seriously i've had quite a few psych and hospital appointments i've met my new cpn and shes sooooo nice also i've been going to a day centre for mentally ill people called community network and also i've been going to mind alot and one of the things i've enjoyed soo much is spending time with my best friend emma i've never had a friend like her shes so special she never judges me even when i do stupid things shes always there and i admire her so much shes been through so much and yet shes come out of it and shes got so much going for her shes got a great flat great parents
you could say things are getting better for me and i guess they are and everyone keeps saying it seems like i am getting better but yet i feel so depressed even suicidal and i am still cutting which is bad i dunno i just wish i could go back to the way things were because at least then i had a reason to be depressed but now i don't really have any reason.
i know i will probably get shouted at for this but i am seriously considering stopping taking my meds i just really don't know how to cope with things going well
you could say things are getting better for me and i guess they are and everyone keeps saying it seems like i am getting better but yet i feel so depressed even suicidal and i am still cutting which is bad i dunno i just wish i could go back to the way things were because at least then i had a reason to be depressed but now i don't really have any reason.
i know i will probably get shouted at for this but i am seriously considering stopping taking my meds i just really don't know how to cope with things going well