So Alone
i still feel so alone, i dont no wether its cos im 200 miles away frm all my friends or cos then dnt seem 2 care nemore that im not around, they dont even realise im soo depressed about it cos there all off bein happy or sortin out their own problems, i was really feelin down last week but i put that down to pmt cos my pmt either manefests itself as depression or anger but it cant b pmt this week so maybe i really am depressed?? i miss my friend so much and they dont seem 2 care about me, they have changed a lot really since i started uni n started 2 loose touch wiv them but now more than ever and i feel like iv got no friends left, ok so iv got friends at uni but its not the same, these friends im missing i have known half my life, except 4 katie who i only met during my second yr of college but we were really close and now shes got a bf and that all we seem to talk about, i sometimes think if i had a bf then all my troubles would go away and i wouldnt feel lonly anymore but i dnt think thats wot i need are my friends back, my dad keeps tellin me ill make new friends but i dont want new friends i want my old friends back, especially katie i dont think she actually realises how close a friend i considered her, the ony one who has even sed she wants me to go back 2 dudley is stella and that made me smile a lot but im really sad at the moment i cant see me gettin happy anytime soon either. I WISH I WASNT LONELY ANY MORE!!!