meh
well i dont feel as bad as i did last time i posted, but im still down, i still av the odd best way to kill myself thought, but i know this isnt the answer, and i know that not everything that makes me miserable is my fault, there are just some aspects of this world i cant change no matter how hard i want to or how hard i try to. i know i am going to get that low again and i know that i will probably get lower, i dont think i have reached the turning point yet, but i now know i will, and that things will get better, and that i will come out of this happy. i just need to get out of this rut im in, i need things to change and im working on that, but untill then i will be depressed.