Tired
I've given up on trying to get to bed at a "normal" time. I've come to the conclusion that 5 am IS my normal time.
Geez, I miss one day of reading my friends, and I'm two pages behind.
I woke up last night with absolutely the worst heartburn I've ever had in my life. I made the mistake of taking the amount of Milk of Magnesia that was recommended for antacid. That was not good, not good at all. I don't EVEN want to think what would have happened if I'd taken as much as they said to take for a laxative. That's all I'll say about that.
The last week, I've been feeling the familiar anxiety and vague tired feeling that's the precursor to something worse. I see my doctor next Tuesday, the 13th. At one point, over a year ago, I wasn't on a mood stabilizer at all, and I was on TWO AD's: Wellbutrin and Celexa. He had to laugh at me I was so all over the place and exhuberant and talkative. I couldn't shut up long enough for him to get a word in edgewise. It seems like every time I've seen him since then, I'm in at least a numb state, if not worse. It just seems like my appts. seem to hit right at that point in my cycles. I don't want to go in that way, this time. But I can't put on an act like I'm all bubbly and bouncy, either. I wish I didn't have to see him at all.
Time for bed.
Geez, I miss one day of reading my friends, and I'm two pages behind.
I woke up last night with absolutely the worst heartburn I've ever had in my life. I made the mistake of taking the amount of Milk of Magnesia that was recommended for antacid. That was not good, not good at all. I don't EVEN want to think what would have happened if I'd taken as much as they said to take for a laxative. That's all I'll say about that.
The last week, I've been feeling the familiar anxiety and vague tired feeling that's the precursor to something worse. I see my doctor next Tuesday, the 13th. At one point, over a year ago, I wasn't on a mood stabilizer at all, and I was on TWO AD's: Wellbutrin and Celexa. He had to laugh at me I was so all over the place and exhuberant and talkative. I couldn't shut up long enough for him to get a word in edgewise. It seems like every time I've seen him since then, I'm in at least a numb state, if not worse. It just seems like my appts. seem to hit right at that point in my cycles. I don't want to go in that way, this time. But I can't put on an act like I'm all bubbly and bouncy, either. I wish I didn't have to see him at all.
Time for bed.