What i feel and what's real.....
REALITY:
welp, lets just say me fucking with lamar has gotten me into a deeper whole. Okay, so i call Safe Auto to see why they wouldn't pay 3,457.50$ liability insurance for the other guy's car damages since i was at fault. Turns out, since the insurance wasn't in my name, nor was i listed on the insurance, NOR was the insurance actually valid that day due to the fact that SafeAuto has this pre-pay thing where you can do a post-dated check or money transfer but the catch is, as long as you didn't give them money, you have quote on quote "insurance" but they can deny you if the payment has not been made in the event that you have an accident. Does that make since? OF COURSE IT DOES! It's my fucking life.
SO I call this Company called Bell, which actually collects the money for State Farm (other guy's insurance)and I get in contact with this guy named Johnny. Now...this is actually the highlight of my day b/c i can't stop thinking about him! He was just sooo nice and so understanding and it's more like...we were friends ya know? And he was talking to me saying if i can just come up with 2500$ which is 957.50$ less than what i would have been paying, then he could have them drop the case altogether.
And not to mention....yes we flirted...he actually asked me out which was sweet. lol. the only thing is he's 31...lol....I'm sorta having a lindsey moment b/c i'm soooo into order guys. And not the manipulative ones that pretend like they're lifting you up but are actually dragging you so far down that you see the gates of hell...
But yeah....i dunno. I'm just confused about alot of things. Some things must come to an end. I have no way of coming up with this money by myself...and i really don't want to go to court and pay all that money...
But on a good thought here- i got a job interview monday that pays 15.00$ an hour. And i applied at Blockbuster. Yeah....I'm getting my ass out of this bind b/c it was my lack of judgement and my being naive that got me into it....
FEELINGS:
I want to do right by myself this time. I've spent so much money time and effort on other ppl. And i'm tired of the insults. Maybe i do deserve to be called stupid, but not by....not by people who are suppposed to be considering your feelings, or supposed to be encouraging....It's not helpful its hurtful and just plain rude and wrong...I don't like it. DOn't you hate when ppl try to make you feel like you're the dummest person alive? Just b/c you make mistakes it makes you somehow dumber...I'm not dumb. I'm....i dunno. Just tired of being taken advantage of when i've done nothing but be helpful to everyone, ESPECIALLY lamar....w/e....
yep...it hurts to be completely screwed over by someone you thought you could trust. Makes you really think about your life and the people in it.. it's all about the damn feelings. From Family to friends to funnerals...it's all about the feelings...
welp, lets just say me fucking with lamar has gotten me into a deeper whole. Okay, so i call Safe Auto to see why they wouldn't pay 3,457.50$ liability insurance for the other guy's car damages since i was at fault. Turns out, since the insurance wasn't in my name, nor was i listed on the insurance, NOR was the insurance actually valid that day due to the fact that SafeAuto has this pre-pay thing where you can do a post-dated check or money transfer but the catch is, as long as you didn't give them money, you have quote on quote "insurance" but they can deny you if the payment has not been made in the event that you have an accident. Does that make since? OF COURSE IT DOES! It's my fucking life.
SO I call this Company called Bell, which actually collects the money for State Farm (other guy's insurance)and I get in contact with this guy named Johnny. Now...this is actually the highlight of my day b/c i can't stop thinking about him! He was just sooo nice and so understanding and it's more like...we were friends ya know? And he was talking to me saying if i can just come up with 2500$ which is 957.50$ less than what i would have been paying, then he could have them drop the case altogether.
And not to mention....yes we flirted...he actually asked me out which was sweet. lol. the only thing is he's 31...lol....I'm sorta having a lindsey moment b/c i'm soooo into order guys. And not the manipulative ones that pretend like they're lifting you up but are actually dragging you so far down that you see the gates of hell...
But yeah....i dunno. I'm just confused about alot of things. Some things must come to an end. I have no way of coming up with this money by myself...and i really don't want to go to court and pay all that money...
But on a good thought here- i got a job interview monday that pays 15.00$ an hour. And i applied at Blockbuster. Yeah....I'm getting my ass out of this bind b/c it was my lack of judgement and my being naive that got me into it....
FEELINGS:
I want to do right by myself this time. I've spent so much money time and effort on other ppl. And i'm tired of the insults. Maybe i do deserve to be called stupid, but not by....not by people who are suppposed to be considering your feelings, or supposed to be encouraging....It's not helpful its hurtful and just plain rude and wrong...I don't like it. DOn't you hate when ppl try to make you feel like you're the dummest person alive? Just b/c you make mistakes it makes you somehow dumber...I'm not dumb. I'm....i dunno. Just tired of being taken advantage of when i've done nothing but be helpful to everyone, ESPECIALLY lamar....w/e....
yep...it hurts to be completely screwed over by someone you thought you could trust. Makes you really think about your life and the people in it.. it's all about the damn feelings. From Family to friends to funnerals...it's all about the feelings...