Imsomnia does not become me.
Second or third night in a row not being able to sleep when I should. It sucks, especially on Monday and Wednesday nights, when I have Microecons at 8am the next morning. Sigh.
The other day, someone asked me if I was feeling homesick. I've only been here about 2 1/2 weeks, and no, I haven't felt homesick yet. Maybe it's because I've always looked forward to what would happen to me, or that, while I knew that staying at home actually meant less responsibility, being away would prepare me for what would come in the future. That's, of course, besides the fact that studying back home when you have the opportunity to study abroad is kind of a no-brainer. To me, at least.
And so, said person asked me why I wasn't homesick. I didn't immediately have the words to say, and I just replied, "Well, I don't really know just yet," because when I told her that, I did think of a response, just that it would sound rather insensitive. I mean, I love my family and all that, but I'm not homesick. Not yet.
So, why not?
Well, I just thought that my parents spent this much money to pay for me to attend a university. It may not have been my first choice, nor is it a course I wanted to take, but the fact is that I am in university, and they're willing to pay for my full 3 years here. With that, I shouldn't, or couldn't waste my energy moping around being sad missing something that I know I won't be able to go back to until June, when I can have as much fun as possible and study as hard as I can and get the best grades possible so that I justify the money and effort my parents expanded to let me come here. That, and so that I can get accepted for Study Abroad next year, hee hee.
That being said, I really should make friends. You know, the raucous kinds like the Melonades and G9 and all that. I know I shouldn't be sitting alone for meals, but sometimes it's just really kind of awkward for me to butt in on people already sitting in groups, chatting and laughing together. Ironic, considering that's kind of like wanting to be part of a group and yet avoiding to do so. Hahaha.
But it's okay. Got signed up for some Currie activities, that should give me a kickstart to getting closer to some people, my mentor's an awesome girl, and it took me, like, about 3 months before I was really close to people like Ei-Lynn and Emily. I think it took me longer to get closer to people like Pei Lyn and Sue Mae, but it did happen. BESIDES, if it weren't for Yenn Ling, I wouldn't have really known Li Za as early as I did, I suppose. That and the prefects. When we were nominees, that was what, May 2004? That was when I got to know/got really close with Kar Mun and Li Za.
So I know that I need to take my time and not force myself in. Though that doesn't mean that I don't wish for someone to just come up to talk to me to try to be friends first. Heh heh.
ANYWAY, I finally am feeling the need to sleep. Wonderful. It sucks when you need to sleep but your brain just won't shut down.
TOMORROW WILL BE A NEW DAY.
In other, non-essential life issues - House is finally coming back next week! And Castle! I have become obsessed with Castle. But I like Kate Beckett more than Richard Castle, hee hee. Sometimes, her work attire is almost exactly what I'd love to wear almost all the time. 3/4 sleeved shirts, leather jackets, trench coats... Hahahaha!
That being said, I spent like 77AUD on 3 books from Amazon the other week. Half of it is the shipping cost, which is almost 13AUD per item. So that'll be about 39. GOOD GRIEF IT IS MORE THAN HALF.
On the other hand, I am currently debating whether I should or should not order Heat Wave off of Amazon.
The other day, someone asked me if I was feeling homesick. I've only been here about 2 1/2 weeks, and no, I haven't felt homesick yet. Maybe it's because I've always looked forward to what would happen to me, or that, while I knew that staying at home actually meant less responsibility, being away would prepare me for what would come in the future. That's, of course, besides the fact that studying back home when you have the opportunity to study abroad is kind of a no-brainer. To me, at least.
And so, said person asked me why I wasn't homesick. I didn't immediately have the words to say, and I just replied, "Well, I don't really know just yet," because when I told her that, I did think of a response, just that it would sound rather insensitive. I mean, I love my family and all that, but I'm not homesick. Not yet.
So, why not?
Well, I just thought that my parents spent this much money to pay for me to attend a university. It may not have been my first choice, nor is it a course I wanted to take, but the fact is that I am in university, and they're willing to pay for my full 3 years here. With that, I shouldn't, or couldn't waste my energy moping around being sad missing something that I know I won't be able to go back to until June, when I can have as much fun as possible and study as hard as I can and get the best grades possible so that I justify the money and effort my parents expanded to let me come here. That, and so that I can get accepted for Study Abroad next year, hee hee.
That being said, I really should make friends. You know, the raucous kinds like the Melonades and G9 and all that. I know I shouldn't be sitting alone for meals, but sometimes it's just really kind of awkward for me to butt in on people already sitting in groups, chatting and laughing together. Ironic, considering that's kind of like wanting to be part of a group and yet avoiding to do so. Hahaha.
But it's okay. Got signed up for some Currie activities, that should give me a kickstart to getting closer to some people, my mentor's an awesome girl, and it took me, like, about 3 months before I was really close to people like Ei-Lynn and Emily. I think it took me longer to get closer to people like Pei Lyn and Sue Mae, but it did happen. BESIDES, if it weren't for Yenn Ling, I wouldn't have really known Li Za as early as I did, I suppose. That and the prefects. When we were nominees, that was what, May 2004? That was when I got to know/got really close with Kar Mun and Li Za.
So I know that I need to take my time and not force myself in. Though that doesn't mean that I don't wish for someone to just come up to talk to me to try to be friends first. Heh heh.
ANYWAY, I finally am feeling the need to sleep. Wonderful. It sucks when you need to sleep but your brain just won't shut down.
TOMORROW WILL BE A NEW DAY.
In other, non-essential life issues - House is finally coming back next week! And Castle! I have become obsessed with Castle. But I like Kate Beckett more than Richard Castle, hee hee. Sometimes, her work attire is almost exactly what I'd love to wear almost all the time. 3/4 sleeved shirts, leather jackets, trench coats... Hahahaha!
That being said, I spent like 77AUD on 3 books from Amazon the other week. Half of it is the shipping cost, which is almost 13AUD per item. So that'll be about 39. GOOD GRIEF IT IS MORE THAN HALF.
On the other hand, I am currently debating whether I should or should not order Heat Wave off of Amazon.