july 6th 5:00 am from paper journal.
so im laying in bed here and listening to the postal service.
"i want so badly to believe that there is truth and love is real"
its raining outisde and its like the sky is crying . ha whatta crock of shit. funny how this is already boring /said before/used/what have you
i got into a fight with a friend today./ she said something that stung & it still hurts . she said "i knew us being nice to eachother wouldnt last"
saying that shows you were never my friend /not if you had that doubt..i never thought that.EVER
it hurts me you said that
ive never taken the time to tell you what happened with her.
but i promise you if you were in my shoes youd understand.
im unhappy about you telling me not to go to your profile over there. anymore either. mgiht as well tell me not to visit you anymore.i know this sounds childish. but its not. not to me. then u gt mad at me for taking you off.
so dont say i wasnt a friend. i tried to be there when you called out then took it back.
you dont know what it is for me to do this. stay away from something bad for me, but i still want. something ive not done before..
you dont think i could get that back? i know i could. but i would lose any amount of self respect ive ever had. i wont walk on myself anymore.
i just wanted to be left alond and you turned that into the end of our friendship
you cant take that line back because its something youve been thinking all along.
"i want so badly to believe that there is truth and love is real"
its raining outisde and its like the sky is crying . ha whatta crock of shit. funny how this is already boring /said before/used/what have you
i got into a fight with a friend today./ she said something that stung & it still hurts . she said "i knew us being nice to eachother wouldnt last"
saying that shows you were never my friend /not if you had that doubt..i never thought that.EVER
it hurts me you said that
ive never taken the time to tell you what happened with her.
but i promise you if you were in my shoes youd understand.
im unhappy about you telling me not to go to your profile over there. anymore either. mgiht as well tell me not to visit you anymore.i know this sounds childish. but its not. not to me. then u gt mad at me for taking you off.
so dont say i wasnt a friend. i tried to be there when you called out then took it back.
you dont know what it is for me to do this. stay away from something bad for me, but i still want. something ive not done before..
you dont think i could get that back? i know i could. but i would lose any amount of self respect ive ever had. i wont walk on myself anymore.
i just wanted to be left alond and you turned that into the end of our friendship
you cant take that line back because its something youve been thinking all along.