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So it's the second day into 2006. I don't really have any huge ups or downs in 2005. Well maybe a few but i'm trying to look at that as the big guy's way of showing he hasn't forgotten about me. ;-)
So want to hear something funnier now? I'm looking at Russel Sage now to transfer to. Yeah I know I'm indecisive but I had a hard time sleeping last night cuz I was thinking and plotting out how I am going to continue on with my education and my future with Limestone.
I figured I would do this since I have OCD when it comes to planning things out for myself.
If I do get into SUNYIT or UC, (which really I'm more so hoping I get into IT than UC) I'd go there for a year and then transfer to Russel Sage the following year. And if I don't get into IT or UC, I am definitely staying one more year at Limestone and then transfer back to NY to Russel Sage.
Why Russel Sage? Well I just found out this fall that Russel Sage has an AT program that is accredited. I felt like kicking myself in the ass for not furhter researching some schools near my house for AT. In addition I just found out last night that their AT program also has a progression onto a doctorate degree in Physical Therapy!
*kick myself in the ass five times*
I told my coach that I'd give him my final decision at the end of January. That is based on if I get accepted to IT or UC and can afford it. If that doesn't happen then I'll tell my coach that I'm staying with Limestone one more year and then I am definitely transferring back to NY. So at least it gives him a chance to scout for another goalie during my junior year at Limestone and I get a chance to play at Limestone the position I was originally recruited for, goalie.
This whole transferring to three different schools may seem a bit crazy and it is but if u understood where I am coming from, this whole transferring plan makes perfect sense. Amazingly my mom is supportive of it as well. When I told her about it she was happy cuz it means I'm closer to home. And if I come back to NY and go to Russel Sage, I might propose the idea of sharing an apartment with big sis.
Nothing set in stone yet. I still need to get the transfer application from IT and submit my application to UC. Tomorrow morning I'm heading out to Utica for the day to fill out the paperwork and drop the UC application off too.
I sometimes wished I had taken a year off after highschool and just worked to save up for a school that really was worth it. Or at least stayed and gone to community college. Get a place with my sister and save her the heartache she endured for the past three years.And I could have saved my mom a boatload of money and myself the heartache I faced when college lacrosse wasn't what I thought it would be, well at least the team unity aspect and trust between a coach and a player goes.
I dont entirely regret going away for college, I mean I wanted something different and exciting and just wanted out of Albany. Looking at my school a little more clearer now, the education isn't horrible but I feel like I need something a bit more challenging, that shit with anatomy was just plain bad luck, I got a B+ in that class this past semester which should have been that two semesters ago. And the atmosphere of the school has changed a whole lot since last year and it's not because I am not a freshman anymore, the older kids and some administrators agree that the atmosphere of teh school has changed a whole lot this year.
I came back to LC wanting revenge on both the AT side and the lacrosse side. Then I realized it's not worth the effort. I'd turn into a superficial, obnoxious asshole just like the next person at Limestone. Yeah the students are friendly at first but then things chance and b/c it's so small a community, drama runs around. And this is going to sound pompous of me, but I'm just too mature for that bullshit. If you're not part of an athletic team, ure an art or music student, and if ure not part of the music and arts department then ure just a regular student. Trust me there aren't that many third party type students at Limestone. It's a jock school plain and simple. And I can only take so many meatheads all around me that like to drink, practice adn sleep.
I honestly didn't think I was going to get into college as a regular student because my grades were so weak. As an athlete I have a better chance of getting into college, but the risks are high when you are a student-athlete. You want to play in college on an awesome team with some scholarship in your pocket, but you also want to get an awesome education and most of the time, you only get one or the other. Limsetone just seemed like the perfect college for me, small school where I am not a number, easy academics, a Div 2 school, athletic training program that has been accredited, warm location, and it's affordable for a private school. It's everything that I could ask for, but the reciprocals of these and more just further turn me away from it.
**I'm going off on a tangent**
Christmas Day I was at church and I saw one my players that I coached for in lacrosse last year. Her name's kristen and she's in 8th grade. Now she has a lot of potential for lacrosse and I sometimes see myself in her because she's short for a goalie but she's good and a fast and eager learner. When her parents asked how college was doin and lacrosse as well I told them the truth that, it's hard to play college level lacrosse, takes a lot of time and committment, and that there's always an ongoing battle between being a student and being an athlete. And I told them about my possiblity to transfer back to NY for educational reasons. I told kristen that she is a student first and then an athlete second. I encouraged her to not let anything keep her from persuing her goal but also to remember to be careful and not burn herself out with lacrosse. You're only young once enjoy most of it while you can. Because if Kristen ever decides to continue lacrosse after highschool, I don't want her to go through the same stuff I went through.
*sigh* I feel like I've written a damn essay...
Bottomline I'm just thinking about my future. I mean if things were different and I wasn't given the short end of the stick, would I stay at Limestone? Maybe, and maybe not. There's just a lot of reasons why I would want to come back to NY, education's number one and the relationship with my boy also helps further push for transfer.
So hopefully things will work out in the end for both sides. Atleast I learned out of this now.
So want to hear something funnier now? I'm looking at Russel Sage now to transfer to. Yeah I know I'm indecisive but I had a hard time sleeping last night cuz I was thinking and plotting out how I am going to continue on with my education and my future with Limestone.
I figured I would do this since I have OCD when it comes to planning things out for myself.
If I do get into SUNYIT or UC, (which really I'm more so hoping I get into IT than UC) I'd go there for a year and then transfer to Russel Sage the following year. And if I don't get into IT or UC, I am definitely staying one more year at Limestone and then transfer back to NY to Russel Sage.
Why Russel Sage? Well I just found out this fall that Russel Sage has an AT program that is accredited. I felt like kicking myself in the ass for not furhter researching some schools near my house for AT. In addition I just found out last night that their AT program also has a progression onto a doctorate degree in Physical Therapy!
*kick myself in the ass five times*
I told my coach that I'd give him my final decision at the end of January. That is based on if I get accepted to IT or UC and can afford it. If that doesn't happen then I'll tell my coach that I'm staying with Limestone one more year and then I am definitely transferring back to NY. So at least it gives him a chance to scout for another goalie during my junior year at Limestone and I get a chance to play at Limestone the position I was originally recruited for, goalie.
This whole transferring to three different schools may seem a bit crazy and it is but if u understood where I am coming from, this whole transferring plan makes perfect sense. Amazingly my mom is supportive of it as well. When I told her about it she was happy cuz it means I'm closer to home. And if I come back to NY and go to Russel Sage, I might propose the idea of sharing an apartment with big sis.
Nothing set in stone yet. I still need to get the transfer application from IT and submit my application to UC. Tomorrow morning I'm heading out to Utica for the day to fill out the paperwork and drop the UC application off too.
I sometimes wished I had taken a year off after highschool and just worked to save up for a school that really was worth it. Or at least stayed and gone to community college. Get a place with my sister and save her the heartache she endured for the past three years.And I could have saved my mom a boatload of money and myself the heartache I faced when college lacrosse wasn't what I thought it would be, well at least the team unity aspect and trust between a coach and a player goes.
I dont entirely regret going away for college, I mean I wanted something different and exciting and just wanted out of Albany. Looking at my school a little more clearer now, the education isn't horrible but I feel like I need something a bit more challenging, that shit with anatomy was just plain bad luck, I got a B+ in that class this past semester which should have been that two semesters ago. And the atmosphere of the school has changed a whole lot since last year and it's not because I am not a freshman anymore, the older kids and some administrators agree that the atmosphere of teh school has changed a whole lot this year.
I came back to LC wanting revenge on both the AT side and the lacrosse side. Then I realized it's not worth the effort. I'd turn into a superficial, obnoxious asshole just like the next person at Limestone. Yeah the students are friendly at first but then things chance and b/c it's so small a community, drama runs around. And this is going to sound pompous of me, but I'm just too mature for that bullshit. If you're not part of an athletic team, ure an art or music student, and if ure not part of the music and arts department then ure just a regular student. Trust me there aren't that many third party type students at Limestone. It's a jock school plain and simple. And I can only take so many meatheads all around me that like to drink, practice adn sleep.
I honestly didn't think I was going to get into college as a regular student because my grades were so weak. As an athlete I have a better chance of getting into college, but the risks are high when you are a student-athlete. You want to play in college on an awesome team with some scholarship in your pocket, but you also want to get an awesome education and most of the time, you only get one or the other. Limsetone just seemed like the perfect college for me, small school where I am not a number, easy academics, a Div 2 school, athletic training program that has been accredited, warm location, and it's affordable for a private school. It's everything that I could ask for, but the reciprocals of these and more just further turn me away from it.
**I'm going off on a tangent**
Christmas Day I was at church and I saw one my players that I coached for in lacrosse last year. Her name's kristen and she's in 8th grade. Now she has a lot of potential for lacrosse and I sometimes see myself in her because she's short for a goalie but she's good and a fast and eager learner. When her parents asked how college was doin and lacrosse as well I told them the truth that, it's hard to play college level lacrosse, takes a lot of time and committment, and that there's always an ongoing battle between being a student and being an athlete. And I told them about my possiblity to transfer back to NY for educational reasons. I told kristen that she is a student first and then an athlete second. I encouraged her to not let anything keep her from persuing her goal but also to remember to be careful and not burn herself out with lacrosse. You're only young once enjoy most of it while you can. Because if Kristen ever decides to continue lacrosse after highschool, I don't want her to go through the same stuff I went through.
*sigh* I feel like I've written a damn essay...
Bottomline I'm just thinking about my future. I mean if things were different and I wasn't given the short end of the stick, would I stay at Limestone? Maybe, and maybe not. There's just a lot of reasons why I would want to come back to NY, education's number one and the relationship with my boy also helps further push for transfer.
So hopefully things will work out in the end for both sides. Atleast I learned out of this now.