Elle's 18th

Sep 12, 2006 23:38

Hey all
Well thought would update about Elles coz... well i said i would, even tho most of u will have heard all about it, but i have a habit of wanting to write about everything on here coz... well then itz all in one place i guess.

It was on the... 26th August i think... the Saturday before last. And we went down 2 Broxbourne, and i finally saw elles house lol. Gave Ravi a lift down there coz neither of us knew where we were going and thought was better to get lost with sum1 then 2 ppl get lost separetely lol. But we found it, and typically were late so was already a "party" going on. She'd invited lots of ppl from this I-pop thing she went on - the modelling/singing/acting thing in new york. And sum of them were younger but still really really funny. From Hills there was me an Sarah (confusing lol) and then Ravi was there "from the train" which made him sound like a pervert whenever people asked us how we knew elle lol. But it was amusing (for me and sarah and elle anyway lol).
Was really really nice meeting all these random ppl she knew, tho they were younger it wasn't completely noticable, just on a couple of occasions when they were just acting a lil bit immature...
Well, we got there at about half 8, and hung out at the house for a bit partying people which was fun, then at about half 10 we got a lift down to Eros wiv her Cousin (i think). Eros is thie Club sumwhere near where she lives, north London i think. So there was the 5 of us over 18s partying for a bit, not drinking too much coz was expensive and we'd been drinking b4 we went out, but regardless was starting to feel wobbly on my heels so was def a bit more than tipsy. Flirted with a couple of blokes, got bought a couple of drinks, but nothing overly interesting i don't think.... memory is a lil bit fuzzy ish but i think thatz time passing as opposed to alcohol consumption.
Then went back at about half 1 coz we'd basically left a family party and we all felt a bit rude and it wasn't like it wasn't fun at the house, and we'd spent too much money already lol.
So then we got back to Elles, and party was still in full swing, complete with completely sloshed 14-17 yr olds. Wow they r amusing. There was this 1 girl Tara who was 14 who was completely sloshed and was coming on to her sister's boyfriend (sister is 15, bf is 16) and it was the funniest thing to watch - that sounds harsh but it was literally like a mini soap opera unfolding right before our eyes. But she kept touching his leg and saying "I'm feeling really horny" and stuff so we kept telling Lewis (the boyfriend) to move for his own saftey but whenever he moved his chair away she moved hers with it. Then sum1 brought her a coffee coz her parents were coming to get her and her sister at half 2 (who are these parents and why have i been lumbered with ones who wont come out past 11) And they set the coffee down in front of her, and she drank sum, then when danielle (who gave her the coffee) wasn't looking, she grabbed Lewis' beer and poured a load into the coffee!
Lol 14 yr old drunks are so much fun to watch!
Danielle was brilliant tho, she was so so funny and has the coolest laugh and she had almost the same necklace as me only hers was £16 from oasis and mine was £2 from Primark! lol that was brill.
Plus Danielle and Rupesh were telling me and Sarah we looked like we were about 20/21 which was kool - at this age I'm flattered when ppl think i'm older, when i'm 23 I'll b insulted if they think I look older i'm sure lol
And, Andy. Oh My... Randy Andy.
Well hez, a family friend i guess. Hez a year and a month older than Elle, which makes him about 6 months older than me. And His mum and Elles mum are best friends. So Elle and him have known eachother since they were kids, so Elle thinks of him as a slightly older brother.
When we were there b4 we went out he was "happy drunk" so he was smiling and waving at every1, and me n Sarah decided he had this "connection" with Ravi coz we were standing in the hallway for a while coz there was nowhere else 2 stand, and everytime he walked past he'd come up and shake Ravi's hand. This must have happened like 7 times. It was very amusing. Then we noticed drama in the garden and went outside to watch the unfolding scandal, then we went out to Eros.
Then when we came back from Eros, Andy had drunk more. Much more apparently. Elle's Dad took a bottle of Sambuca off him coz he was necking it apparently. He wasn't really really obviously drunk rite. Just if u watched him or listened to him for long enough u could tell that he was drunk.
So at about 2:30 - 3:00 ish these new ppl arrived - Cos and... a girl who I'm annoyed i've forgotten the name of coz she was really really kool.
And me and Sarah were talking to them with Elle, She was like in the porch with them and we were leaning in the doorway. So Andy comes up behind us and puts his arms around us, asks us our names, gets tripped out that we're both called Sarah. Elle shoots me a weird look as if to say what the fuck, so i raise my eyebrows at her (notice plural, cannot raise only one eyebrow) I'm not sure what i'm meaning by it but it is all i can think of to do coz - lets face it - i was a bit drunk. Um then Cos and random girl go into meet and greet rest of family, Elle goes with and me and Sarah go to follow.
Andy still had his arm round me. He's released other Sarah tho... odd... yea a lil...
Well ok itz really weird in my opinion. I was confused at this point coz to be honest other Sarah is far more attractive than me. Nobody with 2 brain cells would ever say i'm more attractive than her. Shez a whole other league to me.
So this is odd. And he says "your looking really good Sarah." and going through my head is "itz a line.. itz a line.. don't pay attention.. itz a line". But mini problem is hez quite fit, and i'm quite lonely. So I let him compliment me coz itz nice to have someone - however drunk they are - tell you your attractive. So hez saying stuff and then he put his arm round my waist and physically dragged me into the kitchen. I didn't panic at this point coz i was pretty sure that there were people in the kitchen - random relatives and such - but i was a bit resistive coz he was moving me away from my friends. not good. But I was a bit drunk so yea it was prob pretty easy for him to pull me with him into the kitchen.
Then all of a sudden *bam* he was kissing me.
WHAT?
yea romance is so dead.
And in my head my brain was yelling "WHAT THE FUCK???!!!???!!!"@*$@$$*!!" amoung other things.
But does that communicate to the rest of me? No. Coz he was quite a good kisser.
But then his hands started..... wandering to put it politely. And he pushed me into the corner of the radiator (ouch btw, i had a bruise) And literally he was just all over me, and i'm NOT that sort of girl. I still believe in romance, i still believe in prince charming to some extent. Things can move to fast to soon if u get me.
So this time my brain went "WWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHOOOOAAAAA there" and this actually communitcated coz i pushed him away.
And he just looked at me and said "What?"
So i said "I gotta go find my mates"
And he was all "No stay i really like you" etc.etc.
Brain still going "Itz a line itz a FUCKING LINE"
Went to find elle.
"What the fuck happened ur lipgloss is smudged"
ha de ha
Explained.
Dum de dum
Then like half an hour later we're in the garden. sitting round the table. Mini ppl had to leave so itz just me elle sarah ravi lewis rupesh and cos and the random girl left. Andy comes outside and sits next to elle. Then tells elle to sit on his lap. Wow. I'd guessed by this point hez a sleaze coz are rumours that hez come onto every1 at party including Tara. And Elles mum. But lets not get into that. So Elle is like... no... and he says "We need to talklets go talk out the front" and he gets up to walk off, then turns back and says "Be Subtle". Like no1 can fucking hear him. IDIOT!!!!!
So Elle goes to talk to him (telling us to come find her if shez gone longer than like a minute) And according to her he used the following line ;
"You know we're not really related right?"
Oh yea. Romance is definetly dead.
So then they come back and Elle is having a go at him as they approach telling him hez 2 drunk and should go home before he makes even more of a fool of imself by coming onto her nan or something. He was like "what are you talking about i only have eyes for you babe" like we all couldn't hear him.
And Elle said "you've come onto every girl at this table. He came on to you rite Sarah?" Looking at me for confirmation. And i nodded, not trusting myself to talk at this point.
And Andy looked at me and said "Oh like I'd come on to Her, Fucking Slag. She threw herself at me stupid fucking slut."
And that really hurt.
1) It was infront of people, so they all heard it and are watching me react.
2) Itz people i don't know. Itz not like i thought they might think he was telling the truth. Anyone with 2 braincells saw the situation for what it was. Every1 was feeling sorry for me. But itz that. I don't like people i've just met feeling they have to pity me.
3) It was just plain fucking embarrassing when i have self confidence issues and issues with not thinking i'm attractive for sum1 - not matter how drunk they are - to make out that i'm not attractive enough for someone to hit on me.
4) It took away the fact that earlier in the evening someone DID come onto me coz it made me realise that they were obviously just very very drunk and yet again itz like... thatz the only people who seem to really want me. very very drunk guys... or old pervy guys.

Itz like a lot of fucking pain. And i'm hit again by "thatz why Tayo walked away, thatz why no1 u've ever ffancied ever fancies you back" thoughts. And I've got people watching me for a reaction. Lots of people. Who don't know me that well. I mean, all Elles mates I've known for a few hours. And Sarah I've met 4 times, and Ravi i've only met a few times tho i have spoken to him quite a bit. And Elle is the only real person who I know really well at the table and itz just a horrible feeling coz I don't want to cry but I'm a bit scared that if i try to say anything thatz what mite happen.

So Elle tells Andy to fuck off and die, and he walks off - not quietly. And i'm just sitting there singing the chorus of "itz a small world" in my head trying to distract myself from the other thoughts in my head coz if i have to concentrate on the reality i WILL cry. Did i mention i don't do well with these situations when im drunk.
So Sarah says "Sarah are you ok? That was so harsh"
And I'm gradually calming so i say "Yea I'm fune. Hez a shit." Tho it comes out funny so i'm not sure what exactly i said.
and Lewis says "yea he is. don't worry bout him." which was sweet.
And conversation gradually goes back to normal for a bit. I calm down and relax again and forget bout it and we're all happy again.

Nother half hour to hour ish goes by - itz like 4ish i think by now. And me Ravi Lewis and Sarah are in the garden chatting and Ravi is playing Lewis sum of his music when the man of the hour appears.
So Andy sits on the seat across from Ravi. And i have no idea how it comes up but all for no apparent reason Andy starts having a dig at Ravi. Racially.
I can't stand people who are Racist. Itz just so so stupid. No respect for the at all.
So Andy starts saying stuff like "You muslims should have your own airlines." and "That way you'd be blowing up your own families instead of my family and my kid sister and my mum" - his family has never been hit by terrorist activities so this isn't even a fair comment in my opinion - and "You make it so difficult for me as a Greek to get respect coz of my colour"
Rite this in all makes no sense. The airlines comments - thatz not even the fucking point. itz the most naive politically incorrect thing he can say.
More importantly in this. Ravi is hindu. HINDU. So how on earth can he make comments about stereotyping and skin color when hez doing the exact same thing assuming Ravi i muslim? HOW DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE!!!!
And this just went on and on. The most Juvenile, naive politically incorrect obsceneties and i was embarrassed to be sitting at a table with this bloke, and i felt angry on Ravi's behalf. I really wanted to say something but everytime i went to say something Ravi would stop me telling me he wasn't worth it.
It would have been worth it. I would have hit him and it would have been worth it. I know it would have coz i was so so so so fucking angry for him insulting me and for him verbally abusing Ravi.
ANGRY!!!
As it happens poor poor Randy Andy as we all know know him threw up in Elle's brothers room and there aren't any plans to invite him back.
Elle hasn't spoken to him since.

I don't blame her.

Um, do yea that was that.
Stayed up till like 8 in the morning talking to Ravi. He said he could see me getting angry and didn't want me to say something i'd regret. But i wouldn't have regretted it. I don't think. Ah well guess is better Ravi stopped me yelling at Andy or it would have ruined the atmosphere even more than it already was.
So he left at like quarter too 8 coz he was going to a wedding, and we'd not been asleep at all so i bet he was v.v.tired. I kinda wanted to sleep but Elle and Sarah had fallen asleep and i didn't wanna leave Ravi on hiz laz awake coz he thought if he fell asleep he wouldn't wake up to get picked up... But literally as soon as he walked out the door my head hit the pillow and i was out for the count. Woke up at 10:30 coz phone was vibrating - Father calling me.
"Hi"
"Urgh..."
"Sorry did i wake you up?"
"Yes. Yes you did"
"Oh sorry ur mum was just wandering when u'll be back"
"Um... later, I'm getting the train with Sarah"
"ok see you later"

Then hung up but had woken Elle and Sarah up so we decided to get up pretty much then anyway. Had a wash and made myself look at least partially decent tho on only 2-3ish hours sleep is so so difficult. Turns out Randy Andy slept in car coz was out cold when they got home. Plus he'd thrown up in the hedge outside Elle's house. So we get the last larf.
Then after a cup of tea and a bit of a chat with other people who were staying over - Rupesh, Lewis and lots of family - went to station and came back. At like 3 in the afternoon lol.

Was so much fun. Almost worth missing reading for.... almost.
Yea i wish i'd have gone to reading. no lie really i do wish i'd have gone. But then i can go to that next yr, or i can go see bands other times. Elles was a once only thing. So I'm glad i went coz i would have felt bad missing her birthday.

Rite this has gone on long enuff. I'm obviously incapable of writing a short entry.

TTyl my lovelies
xxx
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