MEEEEEEEEEEE hoot boot!
god--- turning 15 just hit me 2day. Spending so much damn time wit little kids it almost makes u wanna relive ur childhood, just b an innocent carefree little kid again. Sometimes i wish i could just go back.
3:30 am wo this is the latest that ive stayed up in a long time. Shit this whole day i was so quiet, and i hate it because usually when i want i could b the most oppinionated talkative person. Even on this i feel like i have things to say but my mind isn't connected 2 my fingers, the thoughts aren't flowing. So the past few days since my bday have been alot better. In the past 2 days i've done everything that i said I was going 2 do in my last entrie. It's funny but usually when i have nothin 2 do for a long time i get bored and want somethin 2 do and then when im busy all the time it is the total opposite feeling. After 2 camps (1 after the other) and a weekend of what was supposed 2 b a shit load of fun which it partially was all i want 2 do is just relax and stay home 4 a few days till i loose my mind from bordem and the cycle starts all over again lol
pretty random but fri. afternoon i had this crazy bike ride. Till than i hadn't rode a bike in months and i was just thinkin wat the hell its not like im doin much here so ill take a little ride 2 the town Harrison. Harrison isn't that far from me, only bout 20 mns away by bike. So anyway im riding along makin turns being careful not 2 crash and 2 achy leggs later im there. I hadn't realized how not in shape my leggs were so i had 2 keep on walkin my bike up stupid little hills periodically along the way. So fri. had been the last day of kiddie camp and i felt adventurous. After reachin harrison i was curious 2 c some of the richness of harrison like its nice houses and such. lol i donno what i was thinking i made a right onto a street than rode on that street for a while than made another turn into what seemed like a street that was going to lead to the entrance to a nature center. It was so pretty on that narrow little street, both sides of the road were surrounded by flowers, trees, a ton of green grass, etc. Of course i didn't at all no the area lol but this was the beauty of it. So i kept on riding down this little road till i got 2 a neighborhood of houses, I wasn't in the mood 2 get lost so i decided 2 not explore that area. Soooo i go back 2 the begining of that road. Durrin my whole mini trip i was thinkin like i can't get lost ill just go back the way i came... turns out i completely forgot the way that i came lmao but than course it wasn't so funny. I kept walking and riding up these roads and i had no idea where i fuckin was at so many points. I got to the point when I was just sayin oh shit what happens if I never make it back to the house... should i knock on some1's door and just b like can i use ur fone 4 a mn. than tell them my story. Than i was also thinking like my mom gets so crazy when she doesn't exactly kno where i am and im gone 4 a long while, what happens if she calls the cops and then there was this huge search 4 me lol just a hell of alot of what ifs, somethin i do 2 much come 2 conclusions when i donno what is going 2 happen. I ended askin this japanese lady where the town that i live in was. She was a bit unsure of herself but i was just like fuck i just want 2 get out here. I thought that i was going 2 end up where i started but i ended up about 5 or 6 miles away.
so this was my interestin little bikeride of that day hehe really should bikeride more it makes me feel damn good afterwards, all of those little endorphins get 2 me makin me feel naturally high.
shit i feel like just havin a real good laugh 4 a RealLy long time. I feel like i lost my touch in the funny department and im just not liking it.
whats going on now currently in sheri's life~~ my dad is actually more popular than me which is kind of sad. It is not really his friends that call him tho just relatives. There is so much madness in my non imediate family because of this wedding that im going 2 and my grandpa being in a nursing home for a while for rehab from an operation that he had on his stomach. I'm happy that im finally goin 2 a wedding but i feel like that part of my fam. doesn't give much shit about my dad, mom, and I. First of all my dad had 2 write in that i was coming bcause i wasn't invited in the begining. Thinkin bout it now going doesn't mean that much 2 me. My family is allready so damn small and getting smaller and those people couldn't even invite me-- the 6 or 7 of them didn't even come 2 my bat mitzvah but that is another totally different story that i won't get into now.
i didn't realize that i had so much 2 say about fri's bike ride heh I got all fired up from typing the last paragraph that I probably won't b able 2 sleep 4 a good long time............
right about now it would b nice if i had some1 over...
I am almost over the problem.. that i had last week i just need a little more time 2 get myself completely straightened out and stop thinkin about all the depressing crap that i've been thinking about.
I have such an urge 2 hug some1 and just say love u.
i will end here
-Bye-
3:30 am wo this is the latest that ive stayed up in a long time. Shit this whole day i was so quiet, and i hate it because usually when i want i could b the most oppinionated talkative person. Even on this i feel like i have things to say but my mind isn't connected 2 my fingers, the thoughts aren't flowing. So the past few days since my bday have been alot better. In the past 2 days i've done everything that i said I was going 2 do in my last entrie. It's funny but usually when i have nothin 2 do for a long time i get bored and want somethin 2 do and then when im busy all the time it is the total opposite feeling. After 2 camps (1 after the other) and a weekend of what was supposed 2 b a shit load of fun which it partially was all i want 2 do is just relax and stay home 4 a few days till i loose my mind from bordem and the cycle starts all over again lol
pretty random but fri. afternoon i had this crazy bike ride. Till than i hadn't rode a bike in months and i was just thinkin wat the hell its not like im doin much here so ill take a little ride 2 the town Harrison. Harrison isn't that far from me, only bout 20 mns away by bike. So anyway im riding along makin turns being careful not 2 crash and 2 achy leggs later im there. I hadn't realized how not in shape my leggs were so i had 2 keep on walkin my bike up stupid little hills periodically along the way. So fri. had been the last day of kiddie camp and i felt adventurous. After reachin harrison i was curious 2 c some of the richness of harrison like its nice houses and such. lol i donno what i was thinking i made a right onto a street than rode on that street for a while than made another turn into what seemed like a street that was going to lead to the entrance to a nature center. It was so pretty on that narrow little street, both sides of the road were surrounded by flowers, trees, a ton of green grass, etc. Of course i didn't at all no the area lol but this was the beauty of it. So i kept on riding down this little road till i got 2 a neighborhood of houses, I wasn't in the mood 2 get lost so i decided 2 not explore that area. Soooo i go back 2 the begining of that road. Durrin my whole mini trip i was thinkin like i can't get lost ill just go back the way i came... turns out i completely forgot the way that i came lmao but than course it wasn't so funny. I kept walking and riding up these roads and i had no idea where i fuckin was at so many points. I got to the point when I was just sayin oh shit what happens if I never make it back to the house... should i knock on some1's door and just b like can i use ur fone 4 a mn. than tell them my story. Than i was also thinking like my mom gets so crazy when she doesn't exactly kno where i am and im gone 4 a long while, what happens if she calls the cops and then there was this huge search 4 me lol just a hell of alot of what ifs, somethin i do 2 much come 2 conclusions when i donno what is going 2 happen. I ended askin this japanese lady where the town that i live in was. She was a bit unsure of herself but i was just like fuck i just want 2 get out here. I thought that i was going 2 end up where i started but i ended up about 5 or 6 miles away.
so this was my interestin little bikeride of that day hehe really should bikeride more it makes me feel damn good afterwards, all of those little endorphins get 2 me makin me feel naturally high.
shit i feel like just havin a real good laugh 4 a RealLy long time. I feel like i lost my touch in the funny department and im just not liking it.
whats going on now currently in sheri's life~~ my dad is actually more popular than me which is kind of sad. It is not really his friends that call him tho just relatives. There is so much madness in my non imediate family because of this wedding that im going 2 and my grandpa being in a nursing home for a while for rehab from an operation that he had on his stomach. I'm happy that im finally goin 2 a wedding but i feel like that part of my fam. doesn't give much shit about my dad, mom, and I. First of all my dad had 2 write in that i was coming bcause i wasn't invited in the begining. Thinkin bout it now going doesn't mean that much 2 me. My family is allready so damn small and getting smaller and those people couldn't even invite me-- the 6 or 7 of them didn't even come 2 my bat mitzvah but that is another totally different story that i won't get into now.
i didn't realize that i had so much 2 say about fri's bike ride heh I got all fired up from typing the last paragraph that I probably won't b able 2 sleep 4 a good long time............
right about now it would b nice if i had some1 over...
I am almost over the problem.. that i had last week i just need a little more time 2 get myself completely straightened out and stop thinkin about all the depressing crap that i've been thinking about.
I have such an urge 2 hug some1 and just say love u.
i will end here
-Bye-