well... heres 2 another great fuckin day
oh god all of the sudden i feel really unloved, its a horrible fealing. I am not depressed just unloved @ this moment.
I read this book: the earth, my butt, and other big round things and definitely recommend it to absolutely anyone... anyone can relate 2 thks main character. After day 3 days of having it (yesterday) after finishing it i pondered 2 myself about some of the main things explained in the book... including life lessons,,, things like that. So this main character had her best friend move away in the begining of the summer b4 goin into 10th grade. Throughout the entire book she discovers different things about herself and her views dramatically change. This aspect made me think bout sheri... sheri's life, lol my life. I really want to change as a person because i donno but i feel like if i keep on going the way i am ill end up lonely and alone someday. Let me explain (and no1 knew this till now probably): im a moody person... the type of person that is allways judging the way that she looks i guess the word is self conscience person lol last school yr i would sit by myself @ lunch for say 198 out of the mayb 200 days of school. I was i guess happy @ the time and this never exactly bothered me but now i think of it as stupid. I am willing to change myself, make myself more social wit new people a big goal but still ill do it eventually.
What im trying to say is this book (minorly) changed my life.
getting a little bit of topic i am a CIT now @ a YMCA in Rye, NY. When I started i was like kids... lol speachless. Four and five year olds r the cutest things, bad that im saying this but there are a little like pets lmao. Anyway being with them now since Mon. It made me realize how much i like them. THEY R SO CUTE lol had to get that off my chest. I am the only CIT in the Pre-K group but its all good, most of the councelors treat me like im one of them. I think ill probably b a CIT bcause i wont b 16 till aug. 18, next yr.
getting to the point when my eyelids r heavy, sagging much to the point were they r pretty much closed.
in other words i am going to sleep
birthday countdown:
@ 12 it will b 7 days and 14 hrs
till i will b 15
I read this book: the earth, my butt, and other big round things and definitely recommend it to absolutely anyone... anyone can relate 2 thks main character. After day 3 days of having it (yesterday) after finishing it i pondered 2 myself about some of the main things explained in the book... including life lessons,,, things like that. So this main character had her best friend move away in the begining of the summer b4 goin into 10th grade. Throughout the entire book she discovers different things about herself and her views dramatically change. This aspect made me think bout sheri... sheri's life, lol my life. I really want to change as a person because i donno but i feel like if i keep on going the way i am ill end up lonely and alone someday. Let me explain (and no1 knew this till now probably): im a moody person... the type of person that is allways judging the way that she looks i guess the word is self conscience person lol last school yr i would sit by myself @ lunch for say 198 out of the mayb 200 days of school. I was i guess happy @ the time and this never exactly bothered me but now i think of it as stupid. I am willing to change myself, make myself more social wit new people a big goal but still ill do it eventually.
What im trying to say is this book (minorly) changed my life.
getting a little bit of topic i am a CIT now @ a YMCA in Rye, NY. When I started i was like kids... lol speachless. Four and five year olds r the cutest things, bad that im saying this but there are a little like pets lmao. Anyway being with them now since Mon. It made me realize how much i like them. THEY R SO CUTE lol had to get that off my chest. I am the only CIT in the Pre-K group but its all good, most of the councelors treat me like im one of them. I think ill probably b a CIT bcause i wont b 16 till aug. 18, next yr.
getting to the point when my eyelids r heavy, sagging much to the point were they r pretty much closed.
in other words i am going to sleep
birthday countdown:
@ 12 it will b 7 days and 14 hrs
till i will b 15