Dissociated.
I wish I had not left Wisconsin. I have too much work, too much drama, and too many regrets facing me here.
I have to choose which graduate program I want to accept the offer for by the 30th, but I have not heard from the school I want to go to yet.
I can try to hide my misery all I want, but I've been crying pretty much every night.
I miss the way the Mississippi shines even when it's cloudy, walking through the park and blending in with everyone else, and seeing happy people all around me. I was able to absorb the happiness instead of envying it. Now that I'm back at school, I have started to envy their happiness.
When I look at the pics from the conference, I start to wonder if I had found the place for me or whether I am just not meant to be in the Delmarva and PA areas anymore. Home has lost its sparkle, its touch, even WAC has become a shade grayer to my eye.
I'm not having a depressive episode either. I'm actually content and despite the workload I have this week, I am excited about my thesis, grad school, and my future. I just wish I felt connected like I used to.
I have to choose which graduate program I want to accept the offer for by the 30th, but I have not heard from the school I want to go to yet.
I can try to hide my misery all I want, but I've been crying pretty much every night.
I miss the way the Mississippi shines even when it's cloudy, walking through the park and blending in with everyone else, and seeing happy people all around me. I was able to absorb the happiness instead of envying it. Now that I'm back at school, I have started to envy their happiness.
When I look at the pics from the conference, I start to wonder if I had found the place for me or whether I am just not meant to be in the Delmarva and PA areas anymore. Home has lost its sparkle, its touch, even WAC has become a shade grayer to my eye.
I'm not having a depressive episode either. I'm actually content and despite the workload I have this week, I am excited about my thesis, grad school, and my future. I just wish I felt connected like I used to.