Another lovely evening...
Well I just spent another lovely evening with Kelsey and Chase...it was quite interesting. We just sat outside and chilled then we went to watch a movie, and Chase ended up laying in my lap and Kelsey like holding onto my right leg. We're a very close group of friends. So yeah anyway I am feeling much better than I was earlier. I guess Chase and Kelsey helped make that possible. Kelsey teased me about liking Jonathan, but hey its all fair game cause I got to make fun of her when she talked about Matt and Jack. Turns out Chase likes Amanda...I had that one coming. You know why is it every time you get close to a guy and start liking him he ends up liking some other girl, who has a boyfriend no less! *big sigh* I know why, its because she is prettier. *nod nod* yeah she is blonde and slightly slim. But I guess thats the present day male mind for you. I guess I'll just stick to being friends with Chase...it is kind of a let down. And Kelsey when you read this Yes I do still kind of like Chase. I really just feel like shutting out the world right now. I mean I can't say that I'm brokenhearted or anything I'm just conflicted and just a whole other group of emotions. Sometimes I just don't know what to do. It always feels like noone cares and that I'm alone in the world, but I guess that's how its meant to be eh? I just find that it sucks. But I'll be head strong just like a good friend of mine and I'll learn to live with the world...its the only choice I have.