Waiting for a while longer
Samantha's visit is over and I think I'm back to normal. It was a time of such great expectations....and while life has tempered them some, the expectations are still there. Samantha came, she saw, she liked what she saw, and she will be back. She confirmed in her own mind it is me she wants to spend the rest of her life with in the future. But not in the present. She's gone back to Pennsylvania. According to her, she's going to work a year there, get on her own, and get a taste of what it is like to be independent. In a year, she'll come back to Michigan to go to school here locally, and the two of us will become an official couple.
So what do I think? There's the lonely part of me that's disappointed about still being lonely. There's the cynical part that believes that, just like Melissa, she'll never actually come back. Then there's the honest part of me that thinks a year living on her own is the best thing she could get. If she were a steak, I would send her back to the cook. She's not ready yet. She needs a little more time and seasoning and life experience to make the relationship work more effectively. If she's meant to come back, she will. If she doesn't, life will go on.
So what do I think? There's the lonely part of me that's disappointed about still being lonely. There's the cynical part that believes that, just like Melissa, she'll never actually come back. Then there's the honest part of me that thinks a year living on her own is the best thing she could get. If she were a steak, I would send her back to the cook. She's not ready yet. She needs a little more time and seasoning and life experience to make the relationship work more effectively. If she's meant to come back, she will. If she doesn't, life will go on.