sad
but gonnah make it. nice lovely people checking on me. nice lovely people taking care of me. usually i can't stand either but i kindah can't help but to take this.
in other news david an i rode bikes from the cellblock dwntwn all the way to hillsdale hung around some beautiful ladies at a party then rode all the way back to the cellblock. man how extreme, i feel like a body builder! i won't lie though i wanted to cry on the way home. which doesn't mean much i want to cry all the time.
riding the bikes helped me get it out. anger, saddness, powerlessness, hate, hurt, rejection, etc.
school is tomorrow, got to drop a class and have a shit ton of make up work.
my mom is going crazy. understandable.
weirdest part: through me being there during this with my grandfather, i don't think i've ever felt so connected to THE DUDE. i feel him all day. calming peace within the storm. its like he wants to just hold me.
that all i really want from anyone.
in other news david an i rode bikes from the cellblock dwntwn all the way to hillsdale hung around some beautiful ladies at a party then rode all the way back to the cellblock. man how extreme, i feel like a body builder! i won't lie though i wanted to cry on the way home. which doesn't mean much i want to cry all the time.
riding the bikes helped me get it out. anger, saddness, powerlessness, hate, hurt, rejection, etc.
school is tomorrow, got to drop a class and have a shit ton of make up work.
my mom is going crazy. understandable.
weirdest part: through me being there during this with my grandfather, i don't think i've ever felt so connected to THE DUDE. i feel him all day. calming peace within the storm. its like he wants to just hold me.
that all i really want from anyone.