Hey, y'all!
Good afternoon! It's about 4:20, and I'm updating this journal because I have nothing else to do...sort of. I have something to confess: I'm struggling in my walk. A lot of smaller factors have been snowballing, and now I feel so separate from God. Not that I believe any less, or love Him less, but my passion, my fire is gone.
I have been so busy this week with school work that it's been hard to even get a decent amount of sleep. I just took my first nap in over a week today.
I also got my nose pierced two weeks ago and my family has really been giving me grief for it. They assume that because I did that, I'm for sure only going downhill. This hurts beyond description- I feel like they must not know me like I thought they did. I know I have my friends and God, but when you feel like your family doesn't know you, you feel alone. And right now, that's how I feel. I love my family-- do not get the wrong impression!! My family is just awesome. I really could not pray for more, they are my life! Right now, though, they just aren't reacting well to a decision I made of my own volition.
There are other things as well, but I won't bore you... I'm really looking forward to fall retreat *we leave tomorrow*, as it will be a weekend of nothing but loving, worshiping, and listening to God. My soul is craving it, "my flesh cries out" for it even. I just want to get back to the heart of God, the heart of Jesus, the heart of LIFE. Apart from Christ, there is no life. Believe me, I know- I've found this out. Once you know Him, going back and living as though you're without is Hell. So, if you could, keep me in your prayers this weekend, along with all of the other retreatants. Thanks for reading, caring, and praying. Christ's peace!
I have been so busy this week with school work that it's been hard to even get a decent amount of sleep. I just took my first nap in over a week today.
I also got my nose pierced two weeks ago and my family has really been giving me grief for it. They assume that because I did that, I'm for sure only going downhill. This hurts beyond description- I feel like they must not know me like I thought they did. I know I have my friends and God, but when you feel like your family doesn't know you, you feel alone. And right now, that's how I feel. I love my family-- do not get the wrong impression!! My family is just awesome. I really could not pray for more, they are my life! Right now, though, they just aren't reacting well to a decision I made of my own volition.
There are other things as well, but I won't bore you... I'm really looking forward to fall retreat *we leave tomorrow*, as it will be a weekend of nothing but loving, worshiping, and listening to God. My soul is craving it, "my flesh cries out" for it even. I just want to get back to the heart of God, the heart of Jesus, the heart of LIFE. Apart from Christ, there is no life. Believe me, I know- I've found this out. Once you know Him, going back and living as though you're without is Hell. So, if you could, keep me in your prayers this weekend, along with all of the other retreatants. Thanks for reading, caring, and praying. Christ's peace!