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'i realized we had to break up when i was picturing her when we were laying together.'
i guess he's not one for letting a girl down easy.
i haven't felt so alone in months. i was lonely before, but it was bearable. now, it's like i got to taste what it's like to be loved and held, but only for a moment. and then it's ripped away. i feel like no one cares at all and it's so hard to talk about. i fall to quickly, and too easily. for once, i wish someone would be there to help me pick up the pieces...
and he called. but i wasn't home, and i've called him back three days in a row and he hasn't answered, or called back. and then i just feel so incredibly lame and pathetic. i don't even know what to do. i'm so confused. there are so many feelings and emotions all conflicting. i want to be with him so much, and i feel like this can't be over. it was so abrupt. but then, he basically told me that i was hopeless. i just want to hear his voice. taste his lips. feel his skin. but he can't even leave me a damn comment. i hate him so much, but at the same time... he's the only person i want to see.
i haven't cut in over a month now. i feel so good that i've been able to hold off, but i want to so bad. the feeling of the blood slowly dripping down.
he always liked blood...
i can't stand this. i can't stand myself.
i guess he's not one for letting a girl down easy.
i haven't felt so alone in months. i was lonely before, but it was bearable. now, it's like i got to taste what it's like to be loved and held, but only for a moment. and then it's ripped away. i feel like no one cares at all and it's so hard to talk about. i fall to quickly, and too easily. for once, i wish someone would be there to help me pick up the pieces...
and he called. but i wasn't home, and i've called him back three days in a row and he hasn't answered, or called back. and then i just feel so incredibly lame and pathetic. i don't even know what to do. i'm so confused. there are so many feelings and emotions all conflicting. i want to be with him so much, and i feel like this can't be over. it was so abrupt. but then, he basically told me that i was hopeless. i just want to hear his voice. taste his lips. feel his skin. but he can't even leave me a damn comment. i hate him so much, but at the same time... he's the only person i want to see.
i haven't cut in over a month now. i feel so good that i've been able to hold off, but i want to so bad. the feeling of the blood slowly dripping down.
he always liked blood...
i can't stand this. i can't stand myself.