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Today was a good day I think... i got my new shirt, I didnt hate english lession (amazing!), i'm actually waiting for the listening final tomorrow (wtf!), I feel so hyper all the time.
Only thing is that I feel rather lonely, I dont know what I want anymore. I am so close on having everything I want, yet so far. I'm afraid I will fuck up everything like I always do.
And I'm not being depressed now, just little sad.
Funny how i can feel so hyper, yet so sad at the same time.
I hope i'll get over this and finally start doing something to get what i want and want what i want. Cant really explain it,,, I'm strugling on the space between wanting the thing i thoutght i wanted and the actual wanting,
im so confused.
My feelings... Total mess... I need to clear my mind
Only thing is that I feel rather lonely, I dont know what I want anymore. I am so close on having everything I want, yet so far. I'm afraid I will fuck up everything like I always do.
And I'm not being depressed now, just little sad.
Funny how i can feel so hyper, yet so sad at the same time.
I hope i'll get over this and finally start doing something to get what i want and want what i want. Cant really explain it,,, I'm strugling on the space between wanting the thing i thoutght i wanted and the actual wanting,
im so confused.
My feelings... Total mess... I need to clear my mind