ive got a tapeworm in my heart, but the doctor sais you cant die of lonliness.
how do you get things to work out the way you want them to? can you? i have been cursed with an overactive imagination and paranoia. i dont even know if i can bring myself to be with anyone anymore. i have become fed up with the whole thought of looking for anyone to be with. any time that an opportunity arises something always gets thrown off balance and everything tumbles to the ground. who is there anymore to impress anyway? anyone i am interested in knows me too well, and anyone who is interested in me is never close enough to me to draw a sense of compassion towards. the games we play are soooo focking useless and redundant, and i am truely becomming nauseous from choking on the fumes of a million smoldering lies and uncomfterble truths. [sighs] my spirit is in need of something new. a change. blhaaljslkdjf. i needs to get the hell out of here.