Chapter 48: In Which We Are Unable To Sleep.
Dear LJ,
I am now going to vent at you, because none of my friends is online at this ungodly hour. Damn you guys. It is not nice to be awake and miserable in the middle of the night without anyone to talk to. (Okay, it is not your responsibility to stay online 24/7 in order for me to have someone to talk to. But it would be nice. :D)
Last night (well, more like tonight) was my first night without sleeping pills. An attempt doomed before it even begun. I did fall asleep at midnight, though, without too much trouble, but woke up first at 2 am after having had a nightmare, then again at 3 am for the same reason. I could not fall asleep again. Well, that is not completely true. I probably would have fallen asleep after I stopped crying - but I was too afraid to do it.
Stupid blood effing nightmares. Blah.
I hate Finnish summer. It should be darker. Not this light. And warmer, too! Summer bugs me.
I feel like calling someone - just to chat - but it is waaaaaay too early. Although if I am lucky, I just might reach The Swede, in case he has been to a bar last night. But... no.
I am now going to vent at you, because none of my friends is online at this ungodly hour. Damn you guys. It is not nice to be awake and miserable in the middle of the night without anyone to talk to. (Okay, it is not your responsibility to stay online 24/7 in order for me to have someone to talk to. But it would be nice. :D)
Last night (well, more like tonight) was my first night without sleeping pills. An attempt doomed before it even begun. I did fall asleep at midnight, though, without too much trouble, but woke up first at 2 am after having had a nightmare, then again at 3 am for the same reason. I could not fall asleep again. Well, that is not completely true. I probably would have fallen asleep after I stopped crying - but I was too afraid to do it.
Stupid blood effing nightmares. Blah.
I hate Finnish summer. It should be darker. Not this light. And warmer, too! Summer bugs me.
I feel like calling someone - just to chat - but it is waaaaaay too early. Although if I am lucky, I just might reach The Swede, in case he has been to a bar last night. But... no.