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It feels like last summer all over again. I absolutely hate saying "Goodbye."
I broke down tonight after seeing Dad Orr. He told me to not worry and believe in myself because he believes in me. He told me to just look over my right shoulder and he would be there just like that day in summer of 04'. Well let me just say after that, the water works started. In that moment, I lost all of my self confidence. Why can the man do that to me? My dear friend Nikki walked me to my car and tried to tell me what I needed to hear but I was just wrapped up in the thoughts of failing myself, my family, my friends, my mentors.. but I have to only succeed for myself..
I knew there was only one person I had to see before my leave. My MOOFACE..my other half ( we are the same person.. I swear..) My best friend Rachel, without her I think I might die. She let me cry and even gave me cupcakes ( by the way I forgot to say thanks!) I sat in my usual spot on her kitchen counter and she and her family listened and made me laugh.. The medicine I needed..We get eachother through those rough patches in life( boys, school, STRESS) and I am so glad we are there for each other. I never used to believe in the idea of having friends for life but she definitely is one I WILL have..
It was time to venture on home and say goodbye. She is one of the person I least like saying goodbye to. I know it isn't forever but it definitely feels like we are going off to college all over again for the first time. (funny thing is we talk more at school than at home). We said goodbye and she made me come back after I drove almost home for a CD... haha I would have turned around anyways... ( sorry if this points Ray out but hey I needed to say it) SHE PROMISED TO VISIT ME!!
I will keep in touch.. only a phone call or letter and postcard away...
Thanks to everyone to makes me believe in myself.. DAD, SMITH, NIKKI, JEN, RACHEL, MOM, MOM MOM, FAMILY, GC PEEPS...
I KEEP TELLING MYSELF:
I CAN DO THIS... I WILL DO THIS... I WILL SUCCEED...
OFF TO CHATHAM...
I broke down tonight after seeing Dad Orr. He told me to not worry and believe in myself because he believes in me. He told me to just look over my right shoulder and he would be there just like that day in summer of 04'. Well let me just say after that, the water works started. In that moment, I lost all of my self confidence. Why can the man do that to me? My dear friend Nikki walked me to my car and tried to tell me what I needed to hear but I was just wrapped up in the thoughts of failing myself, my family, my friends, my mentors.. but I have to only succeed for myself..
I knew there was only one person I had to see before my leave. My MOOFACE..my other half ( we are the same person.. I swear..) My best friend Rachel, without her I think I might die. She let me cry and even gave me cupcakes ( by the way I forgot to say thanks!) I sat in my usual spot on her kitchen counter and she and her family listened and made me laugh.. The medicine I needed..We get eachother through those rough patches in life( boys, school, STRESS) and I am so glad we are there for each other. I never used to believe in the idea of having friends for life but she definitely is one I WILL have..
It was time to venture on home and say goodbye. She is one of the person I least like saying goodbye to. I know it isn't forever but it definitely feels like we are going off to college all over again for the first time. (funny thing is we talk more at school than at home). We said goodbye and she made me come back after I drove almost home for a CD... haha I would have turned around anyways... ( sorry if this points Ray out but hey I needed to say it) SHE PROMISED TO VISIT ME!!
I will keep in touch.. only a phone call or letter and postcard away...
Thanks to everyone to makes me believe in myself.. DAD, SMITH, NIKKI, JEN, RACHEL, MOM, MOM MOM, FAMILY, GC PEEPS...
I KEEP TELLING MYSELF:
I CAN DO THIS... I WILL DO THIS... I WILL SUCCEED...
OFF TO CHATHAM...