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so today my dad told me that he's going to be having a baby.
well obviously not HIM but i finally get a little brother.
not that anyone who mite read this wud know but my parents recently finally divorced.
im happy that my dad is finalyl getting what he wants.
he's going to be getting a new wife (she'll be here sumtime this week) and a son in december.
It's a strange feeling. i am happy for him. very happy for him.
but on the way to work i still cried.
it's just me being selfish again.
but even so it still hurts the same.
he hasn't told my mom yet.
i'm afraid for when he does tell her.
i was trying to talk to her earlier before i knew that he was having a baby so soon. to try and get her to finally get over him and move on.
but she's still in denial.
she tells me that shes over him but i can tell that shes not.
she still loves him. or maybe shes just stuck loving him because other than me and my sister he's all that she has here.
i'm worried tho. i'm afraid of what she mite do once she finds out.
her mom isn't doing very well in korea. she probably wont last that long.
i hope she sticks around at least long enough for my mom to heal.
i wish that my mom would go back to korea. i love my mom and care for her deeply.
but i want her to go back home. it seems that all she really has here is just hurt.
i have to leave so badly that it almost hurts too much to acknowledge.
but i can't just leave her.
it's like everything in my life is trying to prevent me from leaving.
why can i?
well obviously not HIM but i finally get a little brother.
not that anyone who mite read this wud know but my parents recently finally divorced.
im happy that my dad is finalyl getting what he wants.
he's going to be getting a new wife (she'll be here sumtime this week) and a son in december.
It's a strange feeling. i am happy for him. very happy for him.
but on the way to work i still cried.
it's just me being selfish again.
but even so it still hurts the same.
he hasn't told my mom yet.
i'm afraid for when he does tell her.
i was trying to talk to her earlier before i knew that he was having a baby so soon. to try and get her to finally get over him and move on.
but she's still in denial.
she tells me that shes over him but i can tell that shes not.
she still loves him. or maybe shes just stuck loving him because other than me and my sister he's all that she has here.
i'm worried tho. i'm afraid of what she mite do once she finds out.
her mom isn't doing very well in korea. she probably wont last that long.
i hope she sticks around at least long enough for my mom to heal.
i wish that my mom would go back to korea. i love my mom and care for her deeply.
but i want her to go back home. it seems that all she really has here is just hurt.
i have to leave so badly that it almost hurts too much to acknowledge.
but i can't just leave her.
it's like everything in my life is trying to prevent me from leaving.
why can i?