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When will it be my turn to be happy?
I know that sounds incredibly selfish of me to say but...
I feel like something isn't right.
Or am I happy and just not know it.
What does normal say to day happiness feel like?
Not the kind of fleeting happiness like when you get a new puppy or a new pair of shoes...
The kind of happiness where you feel like everything is ok.
What is that like?
Is it just getting used to the everyday suck?
I'm happy to be seeing everyone around me happy with their lives...
Moving on and growing up. Becoming the person that they feel inside...
But its so tiring to keep smiling for them. All the "good work" and "i'm happy for you"s. It's draining me out.
How far back in the line am I?
Am I even in the right line?
I know that sounds incredibly selfish of me to say but...
I feel like something isn't right.
Or am I happy and just not know it.
What does normal say to day happiness feel like?
Not the kind of fleeting happiness like when you get a new puppy or a new pair of shoes...
The kind of happiness where you feel like everything is ok.
What is that like?
Is it just getting used to the everyday suck?
I'm happy to be seeing everyone around me happy with their lives...
Moving on and growing up. Becoming the person that they feel inside...
But its so tiring to keep smiling for them. All the "good work" and "i'm happy for you"s. It's draining me out.
How far back in the line am I?
Am I even in the right line?