Six...six...six...six...6....6...
wellllllllllll fuuuck where do I start?
1) Ive been doing wonderfully with the no drinking and that makes me proud of myself. I have been intoxicated three times since new years (thats three times in four months)..... once was when my best friend kept buying me drinks to celebrate his NEW clean bill of health (no mas surgery! yay!) the second was st pattys day and the thrid was my birthday...... Now this no drinking bit is sort of biting me in the ass because when I do drink I get drunk faster, and tend to act a lot more insane than before...Makes no sense...haha nothing I regret really..just things I kind of smack myself in the head and go " 'doh " about...homer simpson style..oh wellll
2) Ive learned who my friends are really, people I thought were my true friends Im slowly finding out are not....surprise surprise, sort of....I've been good at burning bridges lately, I don't know what my deal is...and I've also found I am not afraid to express my harsh and bitter jaded feelings about things and people anymore.. If I said it I'll admitt it to you if I didn't already say it directly to you're mother fuckin face..... Also Myspace drama, people who START shit on myspace ARE LAME!....grow some balls...and if you can't at least use the phone..come on don't hide behind a screen...lol.....
3) my friend sjana had her baby girl today. It was the most beautiful thing to see sjana's face while she was holding little myra and just looking at her little feet and body....you could see the love in the room, and it was intense....all because of this tiny new little human being. I'm so happy she called me to go up there with Erica, eventhough we had to drive for what seemed like forever I would do it again in a heart beat. Eventhough we were just waiting and there for her it was one of the most emotionally draining experiances ever (but not in a bad way)....except for now I feel uuber sensitve and just extreemly irritated...bleh
anyway I am finished rambeling..im frustrated, and irritated...Im going to try and sleep now so this mood doesn't follow me into the moring...
xoxoxo
1) Ive been doing wonderfully with the no drinking and that makes me proud of myself. I have been intoxicated three times since new years (thats three times in four months)..... once was when my best friend kept buying me drinks to celebrate his NEW clean bill of health (no mas surgery! yay!) the second was st pattys day and the thrid was my birthday...... Now this no drinking bit is sort of biting me in the ass because when I do drink I get drunk faster, and tend to act a lot more insane than before...Makes no sense...haha nothing I regret really..just things I kind of smack myself in the head and go " 'doh " about...homer simpson style..oh wellll
2) Ive learned who my friends are really, people I thought were my true friends Im slowly finding out are not....surprise surprise, sort of....I've been good at burning bridges lately, I don't know what my deal is...and I've also found I am not afraid to express my harsh and bitter jaded feelings about things and people anymore.. If I said it I'll admitt it to you if I didn't already say it directly to you're mother fuckin face..... Also Myspace drama, people who START shit on myspace ARE LAME!....grow some balls...and if you can't at least use the phone..come on don't hide behind a screen...lol.....
3) my friend sjana had her baby girl today. It was the most beautiful thing to see sjana's face while she was holding little myra and just looking at her little feet and body....you could see the love in the room, and it was intense....all because of this tiny new little human being. I'm so happy she called me to go up there with Erica, eventhough we had to drive for what seemed like forever I would do it again in a heart beat. Eventhough we were just waiting and there for her it was one of the most emotionally draining experiances ever (but not in a bad way)....except for now I feel uuber sensitve and just extreemly irritated...bleh
anyway I am finished rambeling..im frustrated, and irritated...Im going to try and sleep now so this mood doesn't follow me into the moring...
xoxoxo